So my parents are aging, I live two houses down from them, I am the only child.  My dad has severe scarring of the lungs due to breathing silica dust for 30 years, and has silicosis.  he is on high levels of oxygen.  Every year around flu season, he will get sick, run fever, refuse to go to the doctor until he is near death's door and ends up in ICU at the hospital for several days.  My mom is sick as well.  She has osteoparosis, and alot of spine issues.  She won't eat much, says she doesn't get hungry, and doesn't like anything she eats.  she complains about the taste of almost everything she puts in her mouth,  and refuses to eat healthy.  Basically if I cook it, she refuses to even try it.  Well my dad's in the hospital now, cause he did his whole act of not being sick when he was, and refusing to go to the doctor, and now has pnuemonia.  I have depression.  I can't focus or get motivated about anything other than zoning out.  I have alot of work to do at my place of employment.  I feel like I'm walking in a empty yet thick fog, where I just don't care about anything at all.  I want nothing, I expect nothing, I just feel like I don't care about anything at all.