After all these years of taking care of my mom, she passed away last night at 1:33am. I had written her a long letter of things I wanted to say. She was unconscious for the past 2 days and I figured now is the time to read it. I have faith that she could hear me. I read the letter of what she taught me, how much I love her and how amazing she was. I told her she could let go and my dad and I will be fine and to go be with grandma. She opened her eyes and her breathing slowed. I ran to get my dad and put my dog on my mom who was her best friend and then she passed away. I know I should be sad but really... I'm not that sad. Yes, I've shed tears in that moment but I am at peace with this and I knew it was coming. I am happy she is not suffering anymore. I am happy that I think she understood me. I think she would have kept fighting until I did that and I did not want her to keep fighting.. at least not for me. I am so happy that it looked painless. I am so happy she told me a few days ago... "You know I love you don't you?" which I never had any doubt about but it was nice to hear. I wish she could have made it to my wedding next year but I hope she is at peace and no longer has any regrets and is finally happy.