Dear Lynet, I'm so sorry for what you are living with on a daily basis. I had three brothers with alcohol and drug addictions which led to mental health issues in later life, i remember my mum saying that she was always waiting for a phonecall to say something bad had happened. I don't have any advice to make things better except perhaps seeing what help is available to you. I don't want to sound heartless when i say there really is not alot you can do about your son's life choices. I can hear your anxiety and know that I would feel the same but living with the fear of what he may do is not going to help you or anyone. Live in each day and pray for the best care for your son to be there if he needs you but get help yourself. (((hugs)))

The only thing (and the most important thing) you can do to help him is love him. Show him you love him. Cook his favorite meals often and take them to him, tell him you were thinking of him and wondering what you could do to make him feel better and decided all you can do is show him how much you love him. Talk to him about the cute things you remember he used to do when he was little, often. This lets him know that you often think of him and you love him. Tell him you don't care what he does, you love him anyway.While you're with him don't talk about anything but how much you love him, how sweet he is, how he is your baby, If you wash his clothes tell him you washed them b/c you love him and want to make sure he has everything he needs. If you use fabric softener tell him you used it and that you did it b/c you wanted him to have soft clothing on his skin. Tell him his hair looks so cute the way he has it, even if he hasn't washed it, tell him he looks cute with his hair standing up and touch his hair. Hug him and kiss him on the face even if he struggles to get away. Touch his arm when you speak to him. These are all the things I have to do with my son and he has pulled through his depression. He says it's b/c he never knew how much I loved him. Even if all I did was make his bed, I would ask him if he had enough covers. I would buy little things for him like a new pillow case made from flannel and tell him I thought about how warm and soft it would be for his head. If he went shopping with me, I would see a toy he liked when he was little and say, I would So have bought this for you!! Right now, it's all about him and how much you love him. I hope this helps.