Hello everybody! I am going absolutely insane. My wife of over 6 years has left me this past week, and I have been diagnosed with PTSD. My wife, Sarah, really says that it is over and that she has no feelings for me. But, she has not filed for divorce, when i speak to her, she states she doesnt know what she wants, and the few times we have spoken since she left, she sounds like she doesnt want it, even though she tells me she does. Have i gone 100% crazy? i want to change myself to be the best husband for her and the father to my children. I Am getting the help that i need. Does she not want me to? Does she even care if i do? Does she or has she ever loved me truly? I seriously feel like exploding. I love my wife and family so much, that i will do whatever it takes to change myself and get all the help i can get to rid of this PTSD or keep it curbed. Ugh... i just dont know. It doesnt help that i quit smoking too. I really want to go back to it, but i really cannot afford it and i know she doesnt like it.