Every one keeps telling that " let it go what goes around comes around' but is that true? I just want him to pay for his actions to know what it feels like to cry yourself to sleep every night or drive around looking for the one you love all night knowing in your heart their not where they ay they are to feel like you cant breath because it hurts so bad. I have been married to my boyfriend from high school for 9 years it would be ten this November. He has had 4 affairs that I have known about and online profiles for married people to meet up and have sex. I have forgiven hm every time because he would always he would always beg to give him another chance that he would change. He has done a lot more then just cheat he lies about everything I lost my car because he wasn't me making the payments like he said he was and they came to pick it up in the middle of the night. The end of September he moved out to stay with his friend until he got himself together atleast thats what he told me when he moved out i later found out he had a year affair with an older married woman from work he said he was going to end it. He would never tell me or should me where he was living so I know something wasnt right but I kept believing him well then he lost his job lost his car. He said he could never stay the night becuase he was working security at night and he would ask me for gas money I would help him. He bought an old car and when he first got it thats what we drove to go out for our anniversary. I kept finding out more lies here and there but every time I tried to move on he would tell me he was going to kill himself because he couldnt live without me. He confessed that he lived with that woman for a week but hat he that he was staying with his friend now. I found emails of her telling him she missed and love him and if he wanted to her to pick up pizza on her way home. He said all that was over but he would still not show me where he lived and he would only come see me and his son once a week he couldnt even stay to help me after my surgery. Well I moved to Oklahoma on May 6 and he was suppose to come with us but he said he had some stuff to take care off and he would come that following Monday then he said he had no money for a bus ticket he was trying to sell his car he called his mom she bought him a ticked but he said he had to gas money to get to the bus stop so i send him money. Well he never came kept lieing about how now he was homeless living at the bus station. I get a call from the woman he had an affair with saying his been living with her this whole time that the car he has is hers that he told her we had been over a long time ago that they have been living as a family and his been having unprotected sex with her this whole time. He doesnt really work any where she supports him that she knows I use our son ask him thats why he comes to see me that she loves him and trusts him because she knows the real him. She said she left her husband and her house for him he even told her I had cancer so he needed to check on me. After all of this he still called me that same day while she was there whispering that he loves me and wants to be with me. He has never been there for his son and now he doesnt even call him he just calls to ask me if me changing my cell number and he can only call the house phone means we are over. I am soo angry why did this happen to me i should have been the one that left him a long time ago. People like that dont deserve to be happy until they pay for their actions. He living with someone happy as can be and I'm here trying not to fall apart knowing that his never cared about me and his son. My friends and family all tell me that his not happy never will be and one day he will pay for it but when .