Hi.I am currently going threw a very traumatic divorce.

I have 3 little ones aged 4years, 22months and a 10 month old which came as a huge shock.As soon as i fell pregnant with our 3rd my husband comeplety turned agaisnt me and his family and him wanted to abort.I sat all alone in the GP room asking what are the steps of abortion on my own.Right then and there i decided this was my miricale baby and i will protect her.I has a few scares with loosing her.he slowly turned against me his words were he was focused on work.When our littel girl was born i told him if he is not gona be there for me i dont want him in the delievery room.He then got the point.

Once she was born she was in ICU for 7days plus i had 3year old and 11month old at home and i recieved no help.Eventually by october 2016 i coulded take it any more he would speak to me in such a bad manner in front of my family.I did all the night feeds and still worked mornings and had the house under control.

I told him lots of times i was not happy in our relationship as it was one sided but he never listened.I asked for seperation in october and i had keep everything from my family on how he had sexually texted other threw our marriage and before our wedding i found him at another womens house and he promised nothing happened.

I was pulled away from my family by him with him saying im the black sheep and all i have is him.I eventually opened up to my parents.I felt that if he could lock me away from the world he would.

A week later i found out that he had sexually messaged 14 women in my family.when i confronted him he said i was cheating on him which i wasnt,he then got aggressive with me and bruized my arm and tried to overdose and landed up in High care and a mental hospital but booked himself out after a week.He was diagnosed with severe anxiety,depression and bipolar.

I told him i had filed for divorce as i was scared of him and he aslo cant keep a job.I was devastated, his family accussed me of having an affair while im looking after 3 babies.(how is that possible).After december i met up with a ex boyfriend for coffee and my soon to be ex freaked out and went threw my phone as soon as i would walk away from it or go threw my house.

This then sent him back to overdossing leaving sucide notes and i found him but once again it wasnt enough so back into high care and 21 days in hospital.he has currently been out 4 days and is seeing some women that is bipolar and mulitiple personalities.

The 17th March i will be going to court to finalise my divorce but the toll it is taking on me.He plays mind games.I feel he has no responsibilities where dont get me wrong i love my babies but he does nothing to help.

Im sorry for rubbling on but it is unbelievably emotional.I have known him 10years and married 6.

Everytime i see him because he has supervised visitation right, it emotionaly hurts me all over again.