I have been thinking to much of my ex today. Not really sad so much, but letting myself think about only the good times. I guess I have come a long way since I am not crying and making myself nuts, but I don't like that I am romanticizing the relationship. I am missing him and wishing that things could have been different, but of cause they couldn't have been and that is what I mean by romanticizing the relationship. I know he could not, or would not change so things could not have been different. I tried to keep busy today, but I kept thinking if he was here and we where still together we would be doing, and I would think of something. But reality is we would not be doing that because especially towards the end he did nothing with me or the kids because he was to busy texting and going where ever so he could take his phone calls. So I do know this, I guess I am just having a moment. I just needed to put these thoughts down thanks.