so many good responses here...yes, we're here for you, as best as we can be...all the pain i've been through has taught me one thing for sure...it passes...feelings are temporary...you will feel good again, i promise...i bet you have so much to live for, so many who enjoy you, look for those things right now...please get counseling, too...find the right person to listen and be supportive...don't listen to the dark thoughts but find light in God and in love...if you need to call 855.382.5433 for a free consultation with a licensed counselor who can then refer you to someone in your area...hugs and prayers for you

Thanks. I will try meds. I have to do something

Please do, just lay it all out to your doctor believe me they've heard it all . Mine was very understanding and got me medication that took effect right away..(Xanax) and helped me sleep ...hang in there trust me you'll be ok :)

Ok

My heart goes out to you. Spend time on self-care, anything you enjoy that isn't harmful, like yoga or watching a funny movie, something to distract you from the pain. It is hard to see the light right now, but this too shall pass! Hugs :)

I wish I believed that

It will pass! I was where you are now...entire weekends crying in bed etc...stay no contact and talk to your doctor for some temp. Help if needed and believe me you'll make it!

Ok I'm texting the suicide hotline at the moment

i can understand your feelings . people feel suicide will give you much needed relief.cant struggle with complicated emotions of heart and highly realistic mind there is no peace at all. but such is life.its good to die if god has assured you that you have nothing but pains in your life. can you foresee your future ladies/guys.?i guess no.live life hoping for better future.put in your best efforts to make your life better.even a person who is diagnosed with dreadful disease and is informed of his possible chances of dying soon tries to cure himself. marriage and relationships are part of life . you might think iam a happy person who doesnt know what pain really is. i have experienced tormenting relationships.but i still hope to find a better partner.hope god helps. i am not deceiving myself into thinking that there is a better tomorrow. dont die imagining that you have no future.hope and self effort for a good future is a best medicine.

Tired girl give them a call not just a text,
Get into see someone for meds ASAP.

Hold on tight and keep moving forward
We all need a little help sometime. HUGS

Why call? I can't ever articulate my feelings well by speaking

However you do it tiredgirl, just make sure you reach out. No one is ever worth taking your life for. Key word YOUR life.

If you can get help ASAP and some medication, you will be astounded by how much better you feel in little time. When you look back at this in little time, you will wonder why you ever let yourself feel this way for so long. I am here to chat with you anytime.

Thank you. I'm going to the walk in clinic on Monday I'm just worried I won't be able to relay to them how desperate the need is

if you dont mind can you tell me why you intend to know what others have to suggest you to not to commit suicide. people who really feel like killing themselves dont wait for other peoples opinion about to commit suicide or not.it is your life you can do what you want with it. im not encouraging you to suicide. life is precious. you know nothing about it. people here are trying their level best to control depression. you dont even want to try.you know tired girl they are many unfortunate people who might want to live but they know nothing can be done in this regard. im talking about sick people,old people who wish they can live longer.but you you are desperate to die just to avoid hurt. to you human life is worthless. all have good and bad days .i know how you feel because i too feel suicidal many times but i wont kill myself. you know why i have daughter and i cant abandon her in this world and die because i cant stand tormenting pain.i will tell you one thing just for some time postpone death and think what all you always wanted to do in your life even if its a small wish , fulfill it . think what else you wanted to do. i know medicine and counseling will make you normal .but the trick here is how do you escape from pain that torments you think about it .tired girl dont die for any reason.think why should pain control you you are a child of god.nothing can defeat you.be a winner fight and achieve what all you want.i apologize to you being rude.god bless you with happiness.

Thank you