Well, maybe you can tell us more about what's going on

What is happening. Definitely divorce has been the hardest thing ever for me.

I've been through it. I'm here to tell you it's not the end of the world, although it feels like it is. (((HUGS))) Hang in there

Forced!? Divorce is the nuclear option.

You haven't given us anything to go by other than that he's passive aggressive and you're very depressed and suicidal. YOU'RE NOT ALONE! There are a lot of people here who are more than happy to listen to what you have to say and will mean it when they tell you there's a way through everything.

1. Start by calling a crisis line and getting through the immediate suicidal thoughts.

2. After that you can give us some information on what's going on so we can give you some informed advice.

Please know you are not alone and continue to reach out to support groups in your area.

Divoece can be overbearing and painfu but You will find your inner strength and prevail

This group has helped me a lot you are not alone it's been a week since my husband left and sometimes i just have to tell myself you made it through the day keep going tomorrow will be a little easier and you just have to keep going keep yourself busy hang on to the people you love it helps

Strong4me2017, exactly this.

You'll have days where your whole goal is to just survive it. Sadly, you'll have times where your goal is to make it through the next 15 minutes.

Just keep going. Do some things that put your first (go to movie, eat healthy, work out, get dental work done, join a group activity, learn a musical instrument). Do it because you're worth it and it makes you feel better about being you. This is SUPER important because your subconscious is going to be tanking your self-worth in the background.

Find people you can talk to. Find people that will let you vent to them. Find people you can just call and cry incoherently to or scream at without taking offense. Don't bottle stuff up, get it out there.

Let your feelings out. I can't count the number of times I've cried myself numb. I can't count the number of times I've grabbed a pillow and screamed into it until I'm breathless. I can't count the number of times I've gone to my workout room and just started going hard until my excess feelings are exhausted.

You're not alone in any of this. Keep plugging along. Apparently there's another side.

Divorce is devastating; as though a part of you has died. When going through my own, I couldn't imagine ever getting through it. And many times I felt alone because all my friends were married. But please know you will get through this. There isn't a formula to try, or medicine a doctor can prescribe to take away the pain. Somehow, though, you manage to get through one day, and before you know it, a week goes by; then a month; then a year......... It was a long time before I met my second husband and have since celebrated many happy anniversaries with him. All the best to you!

Living with a passive aggressive is pretty debilitating, I understand you having suicidal thoughts. It can seem that you are nothing in this world, if your husband has shut you out repeatedly and consistently. And if he's really good at manipulating the truth to suit his needs, well then you just might feel constantly confused and might believe the things he says. And to top it off, PAs are pretty interested in presenting a great face to the world, so maybe you feel no one will believe what you say about the dysfunction in your relationship? If any of this is remotely true for you, then please understand that you are not alone. PAs don't work in a vacuum though, they need someone to mess with. If that why you're saying you're forced into divorcing him? I get that.

If he won't recognize his behaviors, or if he is owning up to them but isn't interested in truly changing, then your best option is divorce. It took me 30 years, give or take, before I figured out that stbx is PA. I felt like my soul was dying a slow death. I didn't have serious suicidal thoughts, though driving a few times I wondered if I deliberately crashed into the guard rail and went down that embankment, would anyone in my family really miss me? Once I made the decision to divorce, after a full year of soul searching, I felt of ton of weight lifted from me. I have zero regrets about ending the dysfunction.

You have to save yourself. Therapy. Learning about passive aggressiveness. Maybe about co-dependency too. There is a bright future for you, you'll have to work hard toward it, no doubt, but it's within your reach. Divorce is not the end of the world, or the end of you. It's the end of a relationship that was unhealthy. It's a chance for a new start. You CAN do it.

I so understand. The first 6 months, I truly wanted to die, but hour by hour, I survived. I prayed a lot. I listened to Christian Radio, K-love. I had suicidal bthoughts. Sweety, you can do this. You can do this minute by minute. I felt that my divorce was worse than if I had lost him from death. The rejection pierced through my soul. Sweety, take your mind off and rest as much as possible. You may not feel like getting out of the house because your eyes are swollen from crying, but put those sun shades on and go. Good luck.