I have two young, amazingchildren. After years of emotional abuse and possible cheating, I found out with certainty my husband was sleeping with anyone and everyone. I found perverse pictures and texts on his phone with women at massage parlors, hairdresser and affair websites. I was in a state of shock and pain. I knew my life was forever changed. I also knew neither me nor the kids could continue like this. Initially when caught he begged for my forgiveness and admitted to his mistakes but once he saw that I could no longer continue being with him, he went back to his ways of screaming, intimidating and blaming. He is not willing to leave the house and my lawyer says I should not move out with the kids. My only option is a court ordered sale and divorce. I am so scared of doing this because I am scared of him. But not doing it is giving me and my kids anxiety and depression. Please share you stories of strength and hope so I can overcome this and free myself of this controlling, perverse, narcassist.
Just an update on how I'm doing. I just feel like a complete basket case. I'm not liking myself these days. I think its from past abandonment trauma and from my boyfriend cheating. Im just an insecure mess that needs constant validation from everyone. Im not liking myself so much lately and I constantly feel people are going to dislike me for complaining all the time. In general I worry...