Hello
It sounds really harsh, hurting yourself will not do any good. You might be stronger than what you think. Try to cultivate a good healthy relationship with yourself. Money is sometimes an issue but in the end, we all survive the struggles. You are capable to do this on your own. Be brave, be kind to yourself. Monitoring your thoughts and what you say to yourself is important, love yourself, eat healthy, workout a bit and you will slowly start to feel better and have a clear mind.

All the best for you, hopefully with some time and work on yourself you will be able to overcome this situation.

There are always reasons to live for.

Look around, don't worry about being alone. You can make friends just as easy as you can find a lover. Being alone does not have to mean your lonely.

Keep trying..... Keep finding reasons.....

I'll be honest I've asked myself similar things but I keep coming back to the reality that there's so much fun that can be had. I'm already "here" so I might as well enjoy, right?

Instead of focusing on all you don't have why not focus on what you do have and how it could benefit others. It's a common belief that volunteering is one of the most fulfilling activities there are. You get the interaction, you get the great feedback, the activity, the liveliness and the knowledge that you're passing something positive on.

Even if you've got physical restrictions consider volunteering even where you're grounded for treatment. There's always a need somewhere.

Every now and then whenever my mind gets to a really dark place, I think to myself, "okay, my life is empty now. I might as well treat it like a game now and do whatever I like because I have no reason left to strive for. So before I go, what should I do? What do I want to do right now?"

Try to do that, Lostinutah. Try to give yourself some love and comfort even if just for now, even if they choose not to give it to you. You are a living , breathing human being and for that alone you deserve to be happy, even if just for this moment in time. That's in fact, one reason to live... to be happy in THIS moment in time. Many people live a lifetime of wealth and success, and still fail to do that!

I know that is very hard for you right now, and I honestly do not know why life has to be so exceptionally cruel sometimes. But remember - everybody dies, but not everybody lives!

Please keep us updated. We have lots of love for you here.
Hugs

My wife changed me with my best friend, it was a blow below the belt.
For half a year I could not come to my senses,
I was fired from my job, almost all my friends turned away and I did not at all. It's good that my brother took the situation into his own hands and brought me to his senses.
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Well I have not killed myself some what frozen with fear. I joined a dating site found even more scams. Life is still lonely but I am trying to turn back to God and having a hard time doing that. My simple prayer is good what do you want me to do. I have not got an answer yet but I am waiting. I lack purpose I have been a son, a husband a father and a boy friend. Now I am none of those things. My ex wife lives with my brother and my kids have sided with them go figure. I was never abusive but every one around me says I am negative, well after every thing I have been through who wouldn't be I still lack hope trying to find a church but not much luck. Life still feels like a endless tunnel with no light at the end.

It’s very overwhelming to have a great sense of purpose and then have all that taken away from you. But somehow, it seems we are on this earth to learn the art of letting go - to learn that nothing is ever constant, and all we have to do is live in the present moment. Always. I do know the feeling of being deemed too negative, as well as being overly emotional and all forms of toxic - by those who were once closest to me. There are truly reasons that shape us each into the person we are, but sadly, even those who are supposed to know us best can fail or refuse to comprehend - simply because they don’t walk in same shoes as we do.

I am currently living alone and purposeless as well. Loneliness hits hard often and easy, but I find that it helps when you make self progress whether big or small. Just the other day, I moved to a new living space (just a tiny rented room) and organised the place... and it’s made me I feel a lot better! Going out for a walk on a weekend morning helps me set my mood for the whole day. I also started talking to people around me more - and it’s made me realise that I’m not as lonely as I thought.

Please give it a try Lostinutah. Allow yourself to breathe, and enjoy the little things. It’s hard but after all that suffering you’ve been through, you owe it to give yourself love and happiness regardless or not if someone is willing to give it to you. And I urge you to try not to jump back into dating rightaway, at least not on dating sites. I understand how hard it is to be lonely, but those sites are crawling with scammers - it would be better if you could start by making friends, either in real life or online (but be careful still online - never give away your money at all costs!)

I’m sorry this is so long but I truly hope you feel better soon. Hugs

Thank you Jean when I am at work I try to keep busy and when I get home there is not lot of time due to dialysis. The worst part of the day is the morning if I sleep and it all comes back. I am trying to get my place in order but again the dialysis plays havoc with that.. I just hate being alone and that's what got .e into my present mess.

It's been a while since I looked at this post back in August 2020 I was admitted to a behavioral unit after I had a plan to take myself out. I spent almost two weeks in the hospital and was doing better once I got out. Since then I have been struggling and I feel like I am slipping back. I have called a suicide hotline just to talk, I do not have plan. I still don't see much of a point to my life, feel like the preverbial rat in a wheel.