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Roller Coaster of sadness

Lohren
Lohren

its been 5 months since my husband left and he is happy moving on living this wonderful life without me and i feel like i am stuck, it was unexpected and out of the blue and i thought by now it would be getting easier but it is just getting harder, the longer he is gone the more real it becomes and it is harder to move on. I was doing great over the last couple of months i lost a ton of weight have made new friends got my confidence back and than suddenly its like a wave of darness came over me and i am just falling its almost like i feel guilty being happy so the moment i feel it i run away.


i cannot bring myself to continue on i feel like i am broken beyond repair and its just not getting any better, every morning i get up get dressed make myself look pretty i drive to work listening to music to calm myself i walk into work with a big smile on my face and pretend i am great and happy so they cant see i am falling apart, when im around family im bubbly and live so they cannot see i feel like i am slowly dying.


im barely sleeping or eating, i have permenant bags under my eyes, i constantly tell myself to just end it so i dont have to feel the pain and some days it actually gets hard to stop myself.


i dont know what to do anymore i feel like i am just slowly dissapearing into a roller coaster of sadness and emotions.


dylanmurphy
dylanmurphy
He left you. His loss. Continue to grieve or do what you need to. But do not feel guilty or bad over being happy, you deserve it. You deserve a life.
Eevee
Eevee
This is all part of healing. Emotions come in waves. Letting go is very hard and sometimes after a "high" from putting things back together (social life, physical appearance, etc.) the reality of a new life stings that much harder. Remember it's OK to feel what you're feeling. It's OK to cry and grieve. And, it's OK to have a "set back" in your forward progress. Be patient with yourself. Keep focused on some things that actually make you happy. And, of course, seeking a therapist is always beneficial. They can help you over the next hurdle.

Keep your head up. Hugs.
ripped_my_heartout
ripped_my_heartout
So sorry your are feeling this way too. Your words mirror mine. I feel the same way everyday. I'm always putting on a brace face for family, friends, work. Reality I'm busted inside. Constantly forcing myself out of the bed. Today was rough. Emotions up and down all day. I almost lost it. I'll try again tomorrow for a better day. Take care of yourself and stay strong
. -HUGS-
Zenlife7
Zenlife7
I feel like I'm going through the exact same thing. I've got my life together now that my ex and I have broken up, made new friends, lost the weight, the whole 9 yards. Yet, there is no sense of fulfillment in what I do each day, nobody to come home to and cuddle with. I also envy couples I see at work or in public who seem happy together. I swallow my emotions and greet them as if nothing is wrong.
I know that some people fufill the void of not having a partner anymore by going out and having one night stands, but that doesn't appeal to me. I want something more and I often think to myself my relationship with him could have been wonderful. Yet, at the end of the day I realize it wasn't and I left him because he was emotionally abusive and a user. I hope there is someone better out there. Though that idea seems so distant now because I still don't feel anyone wants me and/the people that do are shallow. It's frustrating coming out of an 8 year relationship and having to rebuild the me I lost. Some days I think I'll never find the right guy for me. I often believe such a thing doesn't exist and it's all fairytales we were lead to believe could happen through Disney movies growing up.
Lohren
Lohren
We had been trying to have a baby and it kills me that i went through surgeries etc and finally got to the point we were at and ready to go ahead with ivf for him to leave i feel like i have wasted 5 years of my life and that he never loved me the way i loved him. I feel used and broken and i cant get past it
Koko
Koko
So sorry. I think we are all going through the same thing. I thought I was okay but then I have moments of freak outs and then crying. Divorce sucks.
speechless1000
speechless1000
I went through something similar in my first marriage we actually had ivf and I found out when he was 10 days old my ex was having an affair. Fast forward 5 years and I'm going through a 2nd divorce. Now I just have to make lemonade out of this continuously raining lemons! X I feel for you but least you're not tied to the f***witt for life. X