Pathetic me. Even after everything I know and eyes wide open. Or should I say half shut at this point I still try. I allow myself to give him another "chance". In my life. Not a "oh we are a great married couple chance" but a chance to see if what be says about his changing is true. He seems to change and want to try ( changing personal things he has in his life going on that are "his"I don't want to share since it's his business ) .... BUT -A-SLAP... In the face is what I got. Yes I had eyes open but it still stung a little. My only request was for some simple documents of truth about medical records and a std test. You can guess his response...." No it's my life and you will not control me. "I was not even willing to be intimate at this point, I just wanted to have it for my protection due to past infidelity Issues if there was ever a chance we got back together. The other was from past things that have been promised to me on medical issues. Denied again. Am I asking to much. I think NOT if it is my heart to want these things and honesty. I am so stuck now. I can see he does wants to change but may be incapable of my standards of honesty and respect. I deserve these things along with communication. So I guess I don't have a question more of a vent.