Can you get someone to help? When I was packing his stuff up (he's staying with friends in another state for now) I asked my sister and daughter to do me the huge favor of packing up and shipping or donating his things. I just threw everything in garbage bags for ship or donation and went for a drive. When I came back it was gone. I knew I wouldn't be able to handle it myself.

Then some things just had to go, even though they were perfectly good. New mattress, new bedding, new towels. Anything I had memories of the two of us picking out for our place had to go. Right now I'm staring at the empty space where the clock we had picked out together was--ordered a new one last night. Sometimes you need a change to help you move on.

If I could have moved to a new place I might have, but we'd just renewed the lease here, and I have some pretty great neighbors who seem to get what happened and aren't asking questions and have just been nice to me in a gentle way.

I'm trying to think of this positively as a new beginning. sometimes I can almost believe it.

I'm sorry you're going through this. But you'll be OK

I have done this 3 times, use it as a good time to purdge things you don't need. I know it is hard, it is part of the process and it is not supposed to be fun, your getting normal emotions. You will feel better once you have your new place and to make happy memories

I know it's a cliche but the main thing you need to make a home is love. You fill it with that and it'll be happy.