When no matter what you do, you can't rid your thoughts of another.

No matter how wrong or how toxic things became that caused the inevitable end, you'd go back in a heartbreak.

When you realize the love you so desired is gone....and you know you can never go back.

When talking doesn't help...that's when it sucks.

Then it gets worse from that point on...

...ouch...this shit sucks...I wish I were dead (those are the dumb thoughts)...

...then you see a hot chick...

How is your wife doing at home?

I think about her. I was a stay at home mom too, and I know how tiring it can be.

You work all of the time. I just wonder if she gets any breaks.

You have to go through all that to get to the other side of it. Acceptance really does make you feel better. Sometimes it feels like all you do is talk about "it". Once that stops, and you don't feel the constant need to talk about it, things get better. (((((Rman)))))) (((((Adair)))))

It doesn't really even start to get better until action goes along with the talking...either full effort on saving the marriage, or divorce proceedings. Limbo sucks. hugs Bmore bro.

She's probably not at home she's probably out shopping. Poor thing having to take care of the kids she chose to have and stay home with while he works two jobs to keep his house and keep the girls in barbies. They're both in school she should get a part time job.

patti...my wife is doing just fiine. She's fucking the lawn guy, but thanks for asking.

I saw before what she was wanting you to change. Have you done any of them?

Fuck no, G...I'm not changing who I am to be her bitch. Do I have sucker written on my forehead, or something? She uses her crotch as power. There are many crotches out there....I care about my kids. That's it.

Rman they have always done that. Is she wanting you to change who you are or your actions.

I will not change who I am. I will not pay for the pussy.

Well Rman then be a man. Walk away and live by yourself, pay child support and may be alimony. Be a part time dad because you will see your kids a few days a week. You will still have to keep both jobs because the child support people don't care if you see your kids they want her to get the money. So if this is a life you want to live then I wish you the best.

That is not the way it always works G.... I work over 60 hours a week and I got custody of both my kids... it works, you just have to adjust your time and make the best of it all... the system does not always favor the mother anymore.

Rman, do not change you for anyone, only change if you feel the need to change. If you have bad habits, yes, change that if it is harmful to the well being of your kids... but other than that, keep what is important in focus... you are a good man!

Sorry for screwing up your post, old habits are hard to kill.

Rman is the drinking still a problem?

hahaha