What lives do you see yourself being between? Married and single?

agreed. separation sucks ass.

I am in between the life of the sane and the insane, due to the woman I chose to marry. As much as I joke around, I am truly baffled at why I chose this life. If you ever want to visit me in Maryland, just look for the house with all the eggshells...

You need to find your own normal, you need to find yourself...

your life as you remembered has disappeared/shattered/broken/damanged.......you don't know what normal is (in your mind) ....but only you can determine that.

time, patience, acceptance, knowledge, and grieving will get you there...

I know that because I was there too...it takes times, it takes going through the emotions but trust me one day you will be there.

The saddest part is that I am the only one who feels this way at my house...

I use to walk on egg shells. Then one day I raised the black flag and took it to heart. I realized that the world was mine to plunder and she stood in the way then she was just another obstacle to overcome.

Now that she is with Old Man River and I am all by me onesies...I am still much happier. Let her drive him crazy and not me but.....they better stay on dry land!

"Life is what happens while you are making other plans." Your life is now.

Well little buddy
Stop feeling sorry for yourself and go do something.

I can motivate myself, do something, meet people, start relationships and think positive. The only problem is that I can't change my feelings. I can fake it good, though....

The feelings take awhile. Fake it until you make it.

Your feelings are dishonest.
In other words you are full of crap.
On some level you might have unfinished business (that you have left undone. Like you owe amends . Something ....... Clean up your past and live in the now. Not how you thought you wanted your life .
That would be a delusion.
Look down at your feet se where you are at right now. And like jospring said. Do soemthing fun in this moment . Not the momnet you thought you lost.
You might be a lttle to wacked to understand this.
Matt

I couldn't agree more. However, my between lives is the limbo phase between being married and not. My 5 1/2 yrs. of separation has really taken a toll on us both and our children. Very sad, and very close to insanity. But I am bound and determined to work my way back to my true self, whole and healthy. Just on a off the road path for a while. Ask God to help you through to a better you.

"I can motivate myself, do something, meet people, start relationships and think positive. The only problem is that I can't change my feelings. I can fake it good, though..."

I'm in the same spot. I am going through the motions, getting out, doing things, meeting people ... but my heart just isn't into it. If only kind words and compliments could heal my broken heart, I'd be set ...

*hugs*

I am truly baffled at why I chose this life

I dont think it comes down to that . I dont know why ppl worry about what other ppl think all the time .Who fuckin cares. If its negative so be it .

yep have to agree - fake it til you make it

everyone promised me one day my brain would convice my heart i was ok..it happed..i never believed it would happen but it did