The beginning is very bad, you just survive it
And keep reaching out for support. Therapy,
Support Groups, churches whatever it takes.

Post on Here often. You are not alone and it
does get Better the healthier you can get.

It took me a long time and no contact for 18
months after the divorce to really truly detach
from My ex. Not everyone is like that, its Still
a long hard journey.

Some people need drugs to get Thru this time.
They sort of numb you up though so there is
good and bad with them.

You are experiencing grief and that is something
That needs to be felt and worked out and hopefully
Let go of it. I loved divorce care, i don't hear many
That will go that route on here again thats me. I
Went multiple times.

I too have no children and i was married for 30 years,
Not much in the way of family support either. HUGS

Thank you getting responses from other people really seems to help me

There has been so many of us that have
Walked in your shoes. Keep the faith it Does
get better very slowly after the divorce Is
final and decree is in place.

It just takes time and support to get there.

During my separation and divorce it was
Brutal i won't kid you. The pain of rejection,
Betrayal and abandonment were overwhelming
Especially if you had old wounds.

Keep focusing on healing yourself so you
Can move on, HUGS

I am sorry you are feeling alone but you are not alone by any means. Your age has nothing to do with thinking you will be alone for the rest of your life because you wont be. A friend of mine is 53 years old and she is going through a divorce and thought that she is too old to date too old to start over and too old to get through it. Well she is starting to find the light she was looking for. I suggest you start therapy and or join a group where you will meet other people going through what you are. Start to get out of the house even if it is working part time or helping out at centers or homeless shelters anything. The start of divorce for many is the worst and most painful time in anyone's life but that pain is how we live and learn and move on because staying still does nothing . Only you can put your best foot forward and take the first baby step but you have to try . This is not the end of your world this is the end of something old and your going to come out to something new which is happiness and being whole again . You are a lot stronger than you think you are . If your best friend came to and she was going through the same thing you are what would you tell her to do ? I doubt you would tell her to give up. Do not give up . You can and you will do this . Best of luck to ya and hugs many hugs.

I agree, the beginning is absolutely the hardest time. Barely livable. If you have to just go through the motions, then that's what you do. Numbness is part of it all. Just keep getting up in the morning, showering, doing your regular routine. Even if you feel you have no purpose, you really do, so keep faking it till you feel better. Force yourself to smile at strangers. Actually, I was able to put on a happy act with total strangers - they didn't know what I was going through so I felt safe practicing my "happy" on them. It then really does feel good when someone smiles back at you. I bet you'll start to feel better so gradually, that you might not even notice you're feeling better. Something small might happen, like a smile from someone that causes you to smile back, or you start singing to the radio, or you appreciate something pretty, or enjoy the sunshine. Simple little things like these need to be sought out and appreciated. They're stepping stones to a full fledged happiness that you ARE strong enough to achieve. I did it, I'm just your average person, but I am finding more and more happiness every day. :)