Its just the beginig, but its gets easier. Just buckle up and ride the emotional roller coaster. Dont try to supress anything, let it all out.

you are going to feel that way for some time.

Welcome to the group

Yeah It sucks like really sucks I just want answers to why he did it but regardless nothing will ever justify it you know

Is he still your boyfriend? Is he still cheating?

He is not cheating now no and we aren't together we broke up but kinda with he understanding that we wanted to work toward making things right which I battle with everyday if that's what I want or not

First of all, there is no work for you to do to "make things right." He's the one who has to go into therapy, become transparent and work on building your trust back for as long as it takes without complaint. Secondly, you seriously deserve so much better than someone who has already shown you how little he values you, commitment, trust, honesty and women in general. If he cheated on you, he's probably cheated on past girlfriends too. This is a pattern for him, a way of life. If he really wants to be with you, he's going to have to do the work to earn that privilege ... not you.

Save yourself years of agony and get into therapy
To help you move thru this and learn healthy tools
And ways of thinking. I wish i never married my ex
Now, i had been in some counseling prior to marriage
Wish i kept it up and not married him.

I ended up Marrying someone that did not end up
Respecting me or Our marriage. HUGS

Once a cheat..always a cheat. Kick him to the curb.

Welcome to the group..You will find many kind and supportive ppl here who r or have been where u r.

@Cavahoo and Samantha...good advice =)