To whomever reads this. I first want to thank Bluejay83. He sent me a link that did make a lot of sense on one of my other posts. After reading it, i did think nice, deep and hard about it. The article suggested i wrote a letter to my wife, letting go. I do not want this divorce by any means. But also, with the advice of other members here (thank you all!!!!), i need to let go, to fix me. If the lord above says we are to be together, then it will be so later in life. If not, i need to find gods will in all of this. I am asking with whomever reads this, please read the letter, and let me know what you think abou it. I want to know before i send it to her. i did copy the letter, but re-wrote it to fit my needs and what my heart truly says. Please remember to pray for me and Sarah during this hard time. I love her and realize my mistakes. i want to change myself because i do not like me. i also want to be the husband she wants and needs, and the father to my children. Please let me know what you think....

Sarah,



I have had some very tough times since you have left, before and this time. I love you so much, that I can't see myself without you, or with anybody else. I never imagined that we would be getting a divorce, as I would never want to be without you by my side, through good times and bad. However, I have done some deep down soul-searching, and I now realize that I have been attempting to hold you against your will. I realize that I cannot do this. As I think back on our wedding, I did not have to blackmail you or bend your arm or offer you any bribe, like it may seem i am doing right now and before. It was a decision you made without any pressure from me. Now you you want out of this marriage, and obviously, I have to let you go. I cannot change what has happened, but i can offer my apologies and assurance i am getting the help that i need, and going to stick with it. I'm aware that I cannot force you to stay with me any more than I could have made you marry me in 2005. You are free to go. If you never call me again, then I will accept your decision. I admit that this entire experience has been painful, but I will make it. God has been with me so far and He'll be with me in the future. You and I had some wonderful times together, Sarah. You were my first and only real love and I'll never forget the memories that we made and shared together. I will pray for you and trust that God will guide you in future.

Will Saunders