Breakups & Divorce Support Group
Just broke up with someone or in the midst of a difficult divorce? Breaking up is difficult no matter what the circumstances are. They say that time heals all wounds, but sometimes a listening ear or a hug can work wonders for the heart. Whether you need a place to vent, someone to hold you to No Contact, or need advice about what to do, we're here to help.
For awhile I thought I'd be ok--not great, not happy, but OK.
But the past few days I've missed him horribly. I'm in physical pain from this. Can't sleep, cry at the drop of a hat. Dark thoughts run through my mind--not so much that I'd actually kill myself, but I fantasize about it, I've written "suicide notes". I know it's the pain I really want to end, but not my life, but the two are so intermingled.
He cheated. He did it before and I gave him one more chance. And for awhile things were wonderful--he was proving himself to me. But after a year and a half I found he was texting a woman online (not in a "we're just friends" way). I confronted him then and he said he'd stop it, but he clearly didn't, and after 3 mths of suffering through this and fighting constantly I finally confronted him with the phone bill and he couldn't deny it. I kicked him out.
I just miss him so much. I felt he was the love of my life--we had one of those stories that are supposed to end happily--we dated and fell in love a long time ago, but had to separate then, only to find each other again 23 years later. I've been in love with this man somehow, some way for nearly half my life. I still am. I probably always will be. And I think he still loves me, in his way. Just like we always have--in the back rooms of hearts.
Part of me wants to contact him, but I'm so afraid that if I do I'll find he's moved on and I don't think I can bear that. I want to know, but then, I don't. I want to hear from him--I don't know what I'll do if I do, but I'm more afraid I never will.
It will take time. I know. But sometimes I feel the rest of my life will be like this. And I don't think I could stand that
going through some mess or another. We have to make peace with it. They teach us .Everything in life
is a learning lesson. The Universe and positive vibes are on your side.If you stay in Sadness' clenched
fists then the Universe cannot embrace you and show and offer you what it has in store. Please trust
the process and know that there is a rainbow at the end of it all : ) Hugs feel better- it is okay to want
to push past the hurt , be curious for what is beyond the hurt. I too am in this process now and guess
what it requires you be brave as hell.- but you know what- You Are Worth It!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!