I know just how you feel. I've been this way for almost two mnths now. I wish I could say something that would help. I cry all the time and cant stop thinking why or about my stbex husband. Even after he posted he loves this girl and he dont care who he hurts and dont like it. Some days are better than others. Just know Im here if ya need to chat or vent.Hope it gets better for you. Take care (hugs)

So it seems like you may know what it feels like to be a stranger in your own world. That is how what you describe feels for me.
Maybe you miss him, not because you are needy or fear being alone.
Maybe you miss him because you love him. Maybe you care about him beyond yourself. If so I am sorry for you because that is real loss. To care beyond yourself for someone and to have them not even give as s%&! Can be torture.
Stop caring, it wont make you a bad person. You cant force feed care upon someone. Accept the care that your family is offering you, heal.

That's exactly how I feel.

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I'm so sorry you're in this dark place. I say cry it out until you can't cry anymore. You're grieving a major loss. It's a death, you know? Please don't think you're alone and take all the time you need to be sad. I know it's uncomfortable and you wish you could just get past it, but this is a process you have to complete to move on. Take it minute by minute and before you know it you'll be taking it day by day and week by week. I believe in your strength and your heart and I know you will get through this. Until then, I'm here...