I can very much relate, I find the weekends to be the worst for me. All we can do is to keep trying everyday to be ok with ourselves, as independent people. I will keep you in my prayers.

It takes time, i am still cacooning. I do
Go outside my comfort zone to keep
Pushing myself because i know i need
To.

I still am ready to go home where i Am
emotionally safe. People can often push
My buttons and i still get triggered easily.

What i keep hoping for is to find a very
Good female friend on the same path
And life journey, just to do stuff together.

I have yet to go to A meetup group they
are 20 plus miles Away and i would not
know anyone, its fear of the unknown.

I now live in an apartment its hard not
having pets and a yard to putt around in
Anymore. They both gave me comfort,
Pleasure and relaxation. Dogs have a zest
For life, adventure and fun. HUGS

My wife left me in August. My two kids sleep at her apartment half the time and half the time in our family home. It is lonely and very quiet when I'm in the house by myself. Especially when going to bed and waking up the next morning. The statement in my few posts is how can one person's absence destroy another person's happiness? Why must we be constantly miserable because our loved one betrayed us and abandoned us. It is a terrible experience to go through, but we have to fight for our ability to not rely on the one person who hurt us to be our only source of peace. To allow that to happen is partly giving up on life. We are still alive and have to continue living.

KEEP BUSY! Find a hobby, start working out, watch a movie with a box of chocolates and a bottle of wine. One step at a time, one breath at a time.

I still don't know how I will ever be able to trust a relationship again. I have so much to offer someone but would be scared to even try.

Christine it SUCKS!!!! The weekends are the worst, I just miss all the fun. Its really hard to have fun when you just want to scream and cry. MY heart is just so broken. I cant imagine feeling this way in a year and a half like you, but being married for 25yrs, I don't know what to expect. I cant imagine my life without her....I am trying to fill my days with positive uplifting thoughts and get rid of the negative labels I place on myself. One day at a time, we are all a work in progress. I hope you find something to entertain you this weekend, good book? Park? Be sure to get some fresh air and do something for yourself.

It's not whether you get knocked down its whether you get up.
We all can and yes weekends SUCK. But find something to keep busy curling up in his old shirt with the teddy bear he gave you for your birthday doesn't help. I have tried that too many weekends and have wasted and much time. GET together with friends, heck have some over for movie night.
I am going to the high school volleyball game tonight an hour away so I can get my mind off it.
At least for a bit

Hang in there! We all share your thoughts and struggles and the best thing is to push outside our comfort zones. Good luck and God bless. HUGS

Yes I hope you can find something to keep you busy and occupied. I think this was one of the worst parts for me, I went to sleep early read a book whatever it took to get through the night. I feel for you message me if you want to chat I have definitely been there and it will get better for you. Xoxo