Hi All, its been almost months since I ended a 7 year long distance relationship. We use to be so inlove and we were building our future together eventhough we were apart. It all started when he had this job, his first professional job and I became more demanding. Sometimes I think he was getting busier with his life and I was getting needy because of the problems I was bearing at home. I felt that he was abandoning me that time and tried hard to hold on. Last May he met someone which he told me. It broke my heart so bad and I can't seem to describe how painful it was. I wanted to just disappear. I think I died. I was telling myself I should be over him. We stayed in touch for quite a while, to the point wherein we're almost having an online affair. But things were not getting better for me. I just quit my job and I'm in a lot of financial problems...and worst of all..all motivation, inspiration and confidence left me. It all started with the breakup, now it seems like my life is going downward spiral. I want to get up and pick up myself..I just don't know where to start. I feel like secluding myself and not thinking of anything. I was successful of not thinking about him or feeling so down but for some reason, it's like a blackhole sucking me back with all those miserable feelings. It's all falling apart. Now I don't know how or where to start rebuilding my life. My ex had been my bestfriend for 9 years. He was the inspiration I had to keep things going for me, eventhough we were far apart, our relationship became our motivation to do well as individuals. I don't know what happened, maybe he changed, maybe I did. But I don't know how to get pass this. We both thought we'd end up marrying each other. Why did love turn it against us and afterall these years, why am I still in this miserable phase when he was able to get it going...I don't know what to do..sometimes, I wish I never have to wake up...