I hope you will seek counseling for your issues. It seems you have very little self-esteem. You say you messed things up in the relationship. All the more reason to take a break and work on your own issues.

People will treat us the way we ask to be treated. You are allowing him to treat you like crap when you don't have to. You are young and pretty and deserve better.

it seems that you may place too much on what he is wanting versus what you want for yourself. I would suggest getting to the root of you otherwise you will never feel like you are good enough for anyone, especially yourself.

best wishes.

First, take a deep breath and dry your tears. You seem like you are feeling really down in the dumps because you aren't living up to his expectations.

Did you really do anything that was extremely bad in the relationship to mess it up, or is it that you feel you are just not pleasing him?

Sometimes we can all feel like we are a little worthless, but if we learn to stand on our own two feet and like and accept ourselves, we can start to see things in a different light.

I'm sending you hugs and hoping that you are feeling a little better.

Girl, are you waiting for him to make you feel better about yourself? The only way to be ever secure is to be independent in making ourselves happy. When you have your own ways of enetertaining yourself, goals that keep you occupied and friends to go out with, you aren't going to be freaking out when he drops the plans you had together for the evening. Acting over emotional on him is so going to push him away (he's seeing you as unstable, needy and hysterical and he is treating you like he would a 2 year old- IGNORING and going about his business). How do you think he would react if you:all of a sudden seemed to have a life besides him, plans for the night that didn't include him, days you weren't free to see him, you were emotionally independendent (you don't need him but do enjoy him being around), you had standards that he needs to meet if you are going to consider him for a patner (you know what you want and if he doesn't like it you are going to accept it and move on) and you didn't have too long to wait for him to make up his mind? Would he get curious? Would he think that you again were the girl he once met? I don't mean you should do all these things for him. They would in the first place benefit you and raise your chances at a healthy relationship in the future with him or anyone else you might meet.

I hope you love yourself as much as you seem to love this guy who treats you badly. Maybe by loving yourself you will get away of this difficult situation and start to feel better. You need to move in with a girlfriend.

First .I send you as much compassion as I can, Second, it seems that your thought process is going a million miles and hour, force yourself to go eat, take a walk or a run. You have to get your thoughts more managable, see a therapist. When my mind is like that I know that I have to get out of there because I know I am keeping company with a crazy person. You have to dig deep and get active!