I hope this is true for this case ❤

I'll echo what wombat said...you have done the right thing. It hurts for anyone in your shoes and you'll have moments of discouragement in the coming days and months but it will get better. Just having more peace every day will be a huge relief. Take in every thing that makes you happy each day and celebrate it. Slowly you'll find more things to celebrate every day. Surround yourself with good people to support you through this, vent to friends or to boards like this and whenever you're ready start making plans for your future. Start slow with simple stuff like planning to get groceries or walk in the park tomorrow. Slowly plan bigger things...hobbies, maybe a new job, maybe a vacation, maybe a special purchase, etc. Hang in there...it does get better.

Yes time does heal. I broke up with an ex because of a drug addiction and it felt like part of me had died. I physically hurt inside. No appetite no joy. It took a little while, I mean I thought of him everyday for like a year after that but it slowly got better and better now I hardly think I of him and when I do I think of what an idiot he was and how my life is better without him. No love at all. I believe it will get better hang in there and focus on the reason it just wouldn't work and know it was for the best. Work on YOU! find a hobby you love work on your health, your spirituality, your family ties work on improving yourself in some way take the energy you would normally spend loathing and put it to better use. I wish you well sister!

Thank you all for the support. It does feel like ive died in a sense. Its hard to sleep eat do anything. Or when i do attempt to do something i instantly become drained and want to lay in bed. I feel week mentally and physically. Also due to emotional stress i came down with shingles. I know that i made the best decision though i still think of him and miss him. I am slowly trying to take little steps each day and am so grateful i found this site. Im looking into therapists and groups in my area. I just want to live ....not feel as if im just surviving. Thank you all for your thoughts and feedback and i wish you all love and light on your journey.

Getting shingles is just awful i am so sorry.

I was fortunate and i had the vaccine years
Before the breakup or i probably would Have
had an outbreak from all the stress.

I ended up with mild depression, stress And
anxiety. It can still be a battle at times.

After a Breakup you grieve your losses and
It takes time to move thru it. The longer the
Relationship the harder it is to process. Many
Times the emotional roller coaster will run
From the triggers and all the uncomfortable
feelings And emotions.

Post on here to vent it helps to get it out and
Good on you looking into therapy and attending
some Groups. HUGS

What a hard and extremely courageous thing to do! <3 I'm sure you are going through a multitude of emotions especially since you loved him so much. :'( If your depression continues, I hope you will reach out to someone, your pastor or a counselor. I've talked to both my pastor and I've seen a Christian counselor. They gave me some of the best advice, sound advice, I have ever had plus the support I so desperately needed. Have you ever heard of DivorceCare? It's a great!! program too, one that will connect you with other women just like you, give you hope, plus the resources you need to start the healing process. It was a huge step in my own recovery. It's nationwide so I encourage you to see if there is one in your area. :) I don't know if you are aware but the National Domestic Violence Hotline is completely confidential. They may be able to provide you with additional information, guidance, and resources in your area. They're worth the call and you are worthy! of a happy, emotionally, mentally, and physically healthy life. You're not alone!! You will be in my prayers. Please keep us updated. Wishing you nothing less! than God's best!!

Thank you so much snflwrgrl i will look into the resources you mentioned. Im looking into counseling and i admit my relationship with God is know getting stronger. I am fairly new to my area so im going to research churches closer to me thank you for your thoughts and prayers.

I agree with others you did the right thing and you also showed yourself self compassion, how nice is that!! I don't think it will feel good for awhile, new healthy patterns don't feel comfortable and they can be scary. That is why we go back to the "old sock" so to speak, dysfunction is comfortable and I totally understand that. I just ended a marriage with an alcoholic and I hung in past the point others would have left. Hoping and waiting for change, but it didn't come as he just could not do it and that is okay. Hugs to you

Thank you run2bfree. I am so happy and proud of you for ending your marriage. I believe its harder to leave the longer we stay so kudos to you darling. Yes comfortability will definitely have us running back staying all of that. Heres to better days my love ❤

I think you have done the right decision.