I have just gotten out of a serious relationship. I thought my life was finaly moving forward, my girlfriend of 3 years just broke up with me and her reasons where that she felt like she wanted to be single, that she doesnt feel commited to me.. after 3 years being together going through so much together, all the memories, all the times we had.. i gave her my world.. my life... everything.. i feel empty inside.. To make it worse in less then 2 days my sister passes away out of nowhere, complete shock to my family.. and as im going through this terrible break up, i have to have more shit happen in my life... i contact my girlfriend she was close friends to my sister, im having a hard time trying to deal with my sisters passing, only person i want by my side is my girlfriend...my ex... we do somewhat talk still.. we talk she tells me that she still cares for me, feels for me.. that we should take things slow very slow.. i can feel she doesnt really want to talk with me... in my mind in my heart... i long for her... everyday is hard.. everyday seems like an eternity... im so hurt from this break up... i try talking to her when im able to get chances to talk to her, but she always seem to not wanting to talk back or she only wants to when she wants to.. i know i seem weird.. wanting to keep in touch with her... someone who ment so much to me... ment the world to me.... the pain i deal with is getting to much.. everyday i feel that it grows more and more... ive even been thinking about killing myself so the pain will subside... i feel so lost, my world seems dull, life to me seems just like a never ending cycle of shit after shit...