I would go to therapy to get help for yourself
So you find out the whys and help yourself
Get better. Many of us behave a certain way
By how we were brought up or how we were
Being treated in our marriage. Not everything
Is black and white or clear sometimes. HUGS

Being able to recognize your flaws is a big first step towards fixing them. You should seek therapy. Your children will need you to the best you possible. Good luck

This is my sixth week of therapy and I only regret not going sooner. I have been on anti depressants for almost 8 years and even that couldn't stop the rage. Thank you for the kind words. It really means a lot right now.

My ex was really a dry alcoholic our whole
Marriage and i did things after awhile that
Were not so nice either. You get tired of
Being treated like a doormat and guess
What doormats fight back in some way.

Keep up with your therapy, do your healing
For you and your children. Divorce care. Org
Is a great group to help with the grieving
process and divorce. Let yourself grieve
Your losses, its a process that takes time.

Everything takes time try to be a better version
Of yourself, i think thats what most of us try for.
HUGS

Thank you. I am going to go over to that group. Thank you.

I want to add I am taking the boys to see their older sister in DC this weekend. I am dreading coming home to an empty house with all of his things home. It will be just me and the kids and them blaming me for making Daddy go away. It hurts so very badly!

Take only the blame you deserve dont accept
Anyone elses. Hand it back to them, so glad you
Are in therapy to help guide you. HUGS

Aww…i’m so sorry. Sending you hugs and prayers. I’m glad to know you’re seeing a therapist. Stay strong, okay?

I know how you feel - I made so many in my marriage and my husband cannot forgive me. To make matters worse, without any bad intentions, I keep messing up over and over again.
I hope one day he'll forgive me and give me another chance but for now, all I can do is work on my behaviour and the reasons for my actions.

Karolina exactly what I am doing. Best wishes to you on your journey.

So sorry! It sounds like you love your husband very much. I am so glad you sought out help. Good for you! I am praying for you, your husband & the boys, as you work towards wellness. I grew up without a father, so I understand what you & the boys are feeling at this time. Hugs.

Thank you.