It's normal. I have one ex in particular I still feel that way about and we broke up well over a year ago. Don't. The feeling will pass, and if you do look, you will only be angry with yourself for doing it. TRUST ME! As time goes on, the urge to do it will happen less often to the point when you do get the urge to look will be relatively easy to, you will be able to tell yourself to knock it off. The desperate feeling of needing some contact with him will eventually lessen. Keep NC. Don't initiate and don't respond when he contacts you. You have no need for him or any of the shit he has to say. You don't want to see what he is doing, because it will only make it harder on you and set you back. Keep the forward momentum you have, even if it seems like it is not very fast, because eventually you will hit the point where you don't give a shit what he is doing. It takes time, but you can and will hit that point if you keep doing what you need to.

Are you a reader? If so, pick up the book, "Getting Past Your Breakup". I have recommended it to a lot of people on here. It is a great book with tips to help you out, and it is an easy read. The author does a great job reinforcing just about everything on here people have told others to do, and she gives great tips on how to take care of yourself, build up yourself esteem, deal with the urges to break NC, and start cherishing yourself. I also highly recommend, " How to Fall Out of Love With Someone" which has some great cognitive behavioral exercises on getting past the love you have in your heart for a person. Check them out. If you can't afford to buy them, you can probably get them from the library.

Don't look at his social media. I've done it and I've been sorry after. What I saw only hurt me. Please don't do that to yourself.

Don't worry, these feelings are perfectly normal and we've all had them.

Don't do it. Resist, distract yourself, walk away.

I went nearly a year with total NC, and then due to my stbx getting his butt thrown in jail in February, I had to have some minimal contact with him, and guess what, I felt like garbage until I was able to get back to NC.

NC, it's the way to go. Stay strong. The fact that you're telling us instead of doing it is a big step in the right direction. Make 50 posts on here if you have to, but just stay strong!

Hugs and strength to you

One of my biggest regrets several months ago was reactivating Facebook and looking at her crap. There is nothing there for you except pain and a setback. Go for a walk, watch a comedy, call a friend, maybe write him a letter but don't send it (this has helped me)...anything but contact until you reach indifference. I'm 16 months post breakup and still off Facebook and don't miss it. And i won't make that mistake again.

I'm just catching up on posts. You've probably seen a common trend in the posts here - the emotions come in waves and you can't predict them. Know that the wave will pass, and resist the urge to act on a wave - no FaceBook. I speak from experience that it only hurts you and sets you back.

I hope you were able to resist last night.