To make a long story as short as I can possibly make it, my woman and mother of my 7 year old son broke up with me and left me last July of 18. We were together 8 years and had a very rocky and toxic relationship. We were also somewhat codependent. So 4 months into the breakup I started texting/emailing her some pretty threatning and nasty stuff. (I let my pain and emotions get the best of me.) So in late November the police showed up at my house with a warrant for harrassment. I spent all the holidays in jail and was given my time served in early February. Being locked up actually gave me time to reflect on myself and put my life in perspective. I have been doing positive things since then and have kept 100% no contact with her (my mom handles the communication). I exercise, meditate, have a spiritual life and I am feeling the best and healthiest and have the most self confidence I have had in years. I even got a new job and honestly feel better about my life and myself than I ever thought possible......So a week ago my mom tells me my ex wants me to contact her about some medical insurance for our son. I'm apprehensive, but I do it. She asks me to come by her place and look over a few insurance quotes and to give my input on them. Well not long into it, she starts getting very emotional and going in to how much she missed me, how much her life sucked without me, how she missed us being a family, ect. So we end up sleeping together and she begs me to stay the night and just "hold her". So the next day comes and she texts me that we need to start as friends, take things slow and she pretty much says she had been drinking that night and it was like an "oops, my bad" type of thing. So she wants us to still be friends and hangout and coparent and whatever, but now I have a sea of emotions that have opened up that took me months to get past .I was doing just fine before she initiated all of this. Now I dont know what to say or do. We have already got in several little arguments in this past week. I still have feelings for her and don't know if I can do the friend thing. I don't know if she really wants more. It feels like a disaster waiting to happen. But if I cut off contact I will miss her again and wonder what could have happened. And I miss seeing my son all the time. I am so screwed up over this. I need some outside thoughts on this.....please.