Our became 3 - 4 times a week and I knew. I was just fighting to hold onto him in any way I could. He is still willing and says that he is certain that we will be back together within a month but that's not good enough for me. As long as she is still in the picture I don't even want to discuss the possibilities with him.
So, even though the sex is available if I want it, I can't bring myself to take it. Morals suck!!! :/

Stick to your morals girl!! And I really have to wonder if you've considered whether you want to be put on "hold" while he's out doing his thing.. do you really feel you belong to be second place in anyone's life...? ((HUG)) sweetie.. :(

There isn't a part of my life right now that isn't on hold. I feel like I have been living in limbo for a month now. If I could just find a job and get some aspect of my life out of limbo I don't think I would be so susceptible to him.
No, I am coming to understand that I can be second to no one. It's just difficult to let go of that last little bit of hope when he talks about getting back together.
At this moment it feels like the only hope I have to hold on to. I haven't given into it yet but I haven't totally given up either, unfortunately.

I left because I smelled perfume on him, he didnt admit to this day, he was cheating. I cant sit around and wait, even thought of him going on a side made me leave.

Find your self worth.. (((HUG)))
& Best.. I don't blame you.. good for you!

Thanks!!! I am in a better place for myself, building that self worth thing)))))))))