Im sorry to hear how depressed you are, it is no fun!

You can check with your county health department to see if they have free counseling, they might! I found they do here.

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It isn't easy and it sucks, wish I had words or wisdom for you. I agree, see if you can find some free counseling, it may help, try to start doing things for you, just for you, it isn't easy, trust me I know, but sometimes, it helps, even if it is just for a few minutes.

Nanisama,
This is probably the hardest thing that any of us ever have to go through in life. I know it is hard to hear the words..."it will get better" but believe it or not, it really does get better, but at your own pace!!!

I am with you on not wanting to let go. As much as I have tried to convince myself to let go, there were only good times, and we both loved each other....so even though he ended it, I can't get past the fact that it was an emotionally hard decision for him to make and it was also one that he was very unsure of, but felt he had to follow his heart! So with that, he is in my thoughts every single day! However I know that I can not stop living because he is not with me. If he were to come back, I do not think he would like what he sees in me right now...so I have to keep moving forward and being the person I know I need to be. Hardest thing in the world to do...but so necessary.
I know the words that people say barely help at this point in time, but if you ever want to talk...send me a message!!
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Don't give up!!! I'm convinced there is light at the end of this tunnel we're all looking through. I was in a fetal position on my couch for a while when this first started. Slowly but surely you need to pick yourself up and start putting the pieces back together. Why do you want someone who doesn't want you - you deserve more than that. The thoughts of him are consuming you - see if you could think or do something with a friend or alone too to make YOU happy.
I am not saying your not going to have days like this because lately I have been and it's a year already. You just need to know your worth more than that.

Good luck - HUGSSSSSS

I learned the hard way, you can't make someone love you. I tried for 8-1/2 years. I did everything I could, gave her baby my name, raised him as my own. She always had money, a decent car, nice clothes, a decent house, good insurance from where I worked. None of these things made her happy. She had numerous affairs on me when I worked away from home, she denied everything even when she was caught by the wife of a man she was with. She played the victim and after her physically trying to shoot me, telling me that she did not love me and, never had, I finally moved out. She was my high school sweetheart but, I guess I was never hers. This was my first bought with depression even though I didn't know what depression was at the time. I was placed on nerve medicine, and it went down hill from there on my part. It is sad, and it is scary but, you can survive and you can make it. I payed child support for 14 years. I tried to keep peace between us but, she never loved me and would do whatever she could to hurt me or cause me trouble. I sympathize with you and my prayers are with you.

This is the time to rally up your support system. If you can't see a therapist, what about a priest or clergyman? Talk your best friends ear off. Journal, journal, journal. Exercise is a big one that helps me. I do yoga and that helps also. Please don't let yourself get sick. I don't want to let go either but like c726ab1 said, do we really want someone who doesn't want us? Rejection is soooo hard to take. But I heard someone say once that "Rejection is God's Protection". Please know we are here for you and will never tire of supporting you. Hugs.