Since the rocky waves in the relationship i'm in i am so hung up on this guy i dont enjoy the things i used to anymore. If he is not around I cant focus enough to try to enjoy, i'm too worried about whether or not he will call me like he said he would. (He always says he will call and always says i fell asleep or my phone was in the car charging, or i was busy). I guess i''m tired of all the excuses and think they are so lame. If I say i'll call i call. I dont leave someone saying i'll call you later and the next day tell them oh, i was tired, i fell asleep. He does this many times a week, i feel like he does it on pupose because he says he is sorry but does it again days later. I feel that if i mattered to him, he would want to call me. He would be happy to call and hear my voice. Thats how i feel. I feel its a 0ne way street. I want to make him suffer the same, i want to do it to him now, over and over, and see if he still will accept my excuse, i fell asleep. I wont even call him anymore, because if i do, he never answers his phone. I'm in a group that says dont generalize, and say always, but, it is a fact, so i dont feel its a generalization in this case. I feel lonely, unimportant, like i dont matter enough to him. Then i feel too needy because of my feelings about him not calling bug the hell out of me. Advice would be nice if anyone can help me help myself.
Thanks :O)