Im a gay man and Ive been in a realtionship for about 3 years now with my boyfriend. We met on an online dating app and after we met sparks flew. We even decided to move to the same city together and live together. Only after a couple monts he decided he didnt want this any more, started distancing himself from me. I found that he was seeing other men so I moved out to get my own apartment.  A couple months after we rekindled and found ourselves back in a relationship only this time he kept pushing and blaming me for giving other men my attention (mind you i wasnt seeing any one and the only reason I strated going out more was because i was a single man now). We managed to calm down those suspicions and we ended up moving back in together. Everything seemed to be fine then once again he tells me he feels trapped and is unsure about wanting to be with me. Later i found that he was seeing other men once again. After he begged and pleded to be back together i said yes. We worked on our selves, i took a vow of celibacy (i needed to redefine my definition of healty sex), stopped drinking, and everything seemed to be heading in the right direction. Then one night he went to a friends house warming party had a few drinks then went to a guy he's been seeing behind my back for time house and cheated on me again. I can see that he has some inner issues with sex and relationships, but i dont know how much more i can take. My Self image and self-esteem is at an all time low. I avoid my reflection. I haven't told my friends or family for fear of being judge and ridiculed. I cant get the thought of him doing this once again out of my mind. What should i Do. All advice is welcomed.