So I have been seperated from my "wife" for seven months now, emotionally she tells me now that it has been a few years but she has already begun her new life.

I am now trying to figure out how to get my life started again. The seperation was a complete surprise to me so it has taken me a while to finally get to the point of feeling OK with moving on and getting over the devastation of losing her. At this point I feel that i have zero confidence in myself. Everyday I wake up and look in the mirror I see a different person, my self esteem is completely shot. The other night, I was away from home on business and walked around Brooklyn alone trying to find a place to eat. I ended walking around for 2 hours and walking by a bunch of bars, bistro's and other restaurants and was too afraid to sit down and eat alone. Finally an hour later I walked up to some mexican place that had tables outside and ate dinner. The entire time I watched as couples walked by and it made me even more uncomfortable. Kept thinking why cant I find that. As I sat there, Facebooking my daughter, I wished I could find the confidence to get my life going again. Just as I got up to leave, a beautiful (out of my league) woman walked in alone and sat down to eat. How would or could I even begin to think of how to start a conversation with her? I feel like a 16 boy again. When does the fear go away? How will I ever learn to be OK with being alone? I am not sure I even want a relationship, I just think I need a friend that I can call when I am stuck in traffic or just go out and grab a cup of coffee or a bite to eat. Where do you find that?? So confused?? Any help would be greatly appreciated!!!!