Sounds like it may help too lol

Thanks for your support, i hate all this emotional
Spiking. I am tired of grief, loss and anger. It has
its own time frame though.

Grief is not linear, its has peaks and valleys and
comes And goes. How Lovely !!!

I have heard about those dolls, its him
I need to take it out on. It will do me no
good Though. He has no remorse or concern
Just mad because he had to pay. TFB

Ha! loving this banter! I told my wife tonight after being gone for my aunts funeral, that if she was not going to work on recovery after her affair then we needed to separate. I actually have far less anxiety.

The rollercoaster is so annoying. I have felt like I was having a nervous breakdown all week being around my family and seeing them in happy marriages.

Good for you STex! New Year, time to get the bus moving.

When i was around my family for a week
This fall it took me a month to recover. I
Had to drive there and my mother is very
Difficult and it put me on overwhelm. That is
Not good thing when you are suffering from
anxiety. HUGS

I can't even watch tv or listen to music, so many triggers. I just put my Christian music on, no lyrics about affairs, divorce, cheaters. It is sickening that before I never even really gave it a second thought.

Weekend was ok, went to a funeral earlier and the repast. A girlfriend invited me over and now we're in pajamas. Earlier I was emotional, the funeral made me think about how stupid we can be. The widow said her husband didn't buy her diamonds or flowers but she knew he loved her. That's the love I want, I'd trade my diamonds for that...sigh.....

OMG, a dammit doll! Genius! Never heard of that, lol! Oh man, I think I would like to stick pins in it like a voodoo doll and imagine they're walking down the street and drop in pain from a charlie horse if you stabbed it in the leg, lol!

Also, a dartboard with their picture on it could be satisfying.

Hmmm not sure about a doll since I have little kids but sure sounds better than seething inside! My weekend has been actually good. My Stbx took the kids out of town for his grandfather's 100th birthday party. I went out with coworkers last night and a girlfriend tonight. I did lots of laundry, cleaned and watched tv. I miss my kids but I sure get a lot done when they're not around. Tomorrow I plan on grocery shopping, cook some meals for the week and try to go to this divorce meetup group.

Unfortunately I have to see my FTBX husband at work every day as we work in the same place and will probably still have the same schedule. I guess that will be worse for me. I'll keep you guyz in touch for sure. And today i will help him pack his things for his move out. I am so angry i just want to leave the house and let him handle it. I want to say ...if you want to move then you pack your stuff yourself. But i guess i just don't want to make ugly memories, we never fought, never offended each other, never screamed at each other, i don't want to stain those memories and regret it afterwards.
I am listening to a lot of music lately and of course find myself in many lyrics. And learned about mindfullness. Any of you practice it?

Hello! Presently, it's the morning after my husband left for good. I am considering a houseful of chores...one of them being taking down the Christmas tree...(won't that be a joy)...and helping my daughter with her studies. Basically, I'm going to try my hardest to put one foot over the other until it's time for bed.

ElenaD, good luck today. I'm not there yet but I know I will be soon (the packing of things). I, too, find music extremely helpful and therapeutic. And, like you, I move between grace (how I usually lead my life) to I'd-like-to-beat-his-ass. :) Kidding aside, I have tried to be very mindful, particularly in my marriage the last few years. Now it's the switch I need to make to be more mindful for me and others and not for a dishonest, painful marriage.

Sure that's all we need. Dr mojo. There you go everyone the answer to all our problems.

Yeah right...piss off!!!!!!

My ex is probably sleeping with him!