So today, as I'm hiking outside with 3 of my friends, in the middle of no where, I had come to a realization, one that I think will be the final nail in the coffin for me as far as feeling for my stbx. As anyone who has read some of my stuff, I have MG, and it tends to limit what I can and can't do. Today I was having a good MG day, plus caffeine was helping, and I went out with them in the woods to hike, get lost, and overall have a good time.

And that is exactly what I did. I had a great time. I laughed, I joked, I started becoming social, and then it hit me. I wouldn't of been allowed to do this if I was still with my stbx. She would of forbade me to go, and it would of been another day of wishing I was healthy. At that moment, it just felt like a weight came off my shoulders. Kind of like I finally realized I'm free. It felt so great, to know that I can live my life the way I want to.

Sure, there will be times that I go too far and my MG will cause an issue, but that would be my choice, not hers. The sheer thought of that makes me smile. Tonight, as I sit here weak and tired and worn out, I smile, and feel wonderful inside. It is the first time since she said she didn't love me anymore, and that she wanted to be rid of me.

I am so thankful to all of you for your advice and support, and honestly feel had I not joined this group, and listened to you guys, and read stories of everyone here, today might of not been possible. So while tomorrow I won't be able to walk or move much, I will be able to think back on yesterday, and remember what a great time I had, all because I'm free of the bondage of my stbx. Free and happy.