So sorry for all your pain. Your profile doesn't mention the reason for the break up,or how long it's been. It's so difficult for all of us who has had someone walk away to go through this type of pain,let alone to to be pregnant on top it all. It's normal to have these feelings,it's just a total roller coaster ride. But you also have hormones to battle with. Have you thought of going to see a counselor? I'm not going to be of much help to you except to say I really feel for you in this situation. I am sure there will be a few women here on DS who may have faced the same situation who will have some good advice. All the very best to you and please take care of yourself.Big hug.

Your feelings are normal. What He did not so normal. As time goes by you will look back and say why did i fret so. It is a process. Love yourself and love this baby. You are going to be fine. You are not alone. Keep letting us know whats going on and what can we do to help. Love, Kathy

thanks, its just so hard, everytime i close my eyes i have dreams.... its hard to sleep right. he left me with nothing, and only thinks of himself, my logic side says, why would you want him,
the other side only hears and feels alone... and abandoned and wants the family promised me. im working on going to counseling, i just dont know how much it will help. it never has in the past... im just afraid.
hugs back

It is normal.. and you WILL have the family you want... When that baby comes and you see its eyes open for the first time, or that toothless grin as you say or do something goofy to encourage laughter... It is going to be ok!!... Have you picked out names yet? do you know the sex so I dont keep referring to the baby as "it"?

Sweetie, if counselling has not helped you then you have the wrong counselor!

Czar is right! I was a single mother with my first son,,, yes, his father left me when I was pregnant! That was 26 years ago and I survived and my son is now grown, married and flourishing!

You will survive this and the second that little one comes screaming into the world, you will realize that everything you went through was very well worth it! Even the scum-bag that helped you make that miracle!

Bless you and yell if you need me!

my heart goes out to all you wonderful people who have made it through a time like this....
i just wonder if i am strong enough... will i love this baby enough... its awful to think, but the first one, the one i miscarried, i was so full of love, and exitement.
i am a bit more emotionally withdrawn right now, i want to be happy, i want to feel happy for the baby inside me. its so hard.
all you who have survived this....
deserve a tribute of somekind... i spend everyday wondering if i will break right now... but today, i am still breathing
thank you all.. hugs

Dracona..I feel the same way. I want my ex back so bad. I have tried letting go, but I just can't. I am still so in love with her and I wish we could have back the relationship that was so great in the beginning. That was the happiest I had been all year. I want that back. I wish things hadn't changed. I wish she would have never left me then moved on to someone else. And the person she eventually moved on to just recently dumped her, so now she's just as heartbroken as I was when she left me.

I fantasize about her calling me apologizing for what she did to me and asking for reconciliation. I also dream about it sometimes when I'm asleep. I wish I could get her out of my head and not want her anymore, but my heart won't allow me to let go just yet. Love is a bitch...but I'm in love now, so there's nothing I can do about the way I feel.

I'm just praying and hoping that we can get back together.