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Sorry I haven't been around, I've been a bit busy making progress in my life, and haven't really needed advice. Until now that is. I found out Thursday, that had my ex-wife not forced me into a chair for 4 years, I wouldn't be as torn down as I am. I fall a lot, from being sick with MG, but had I still been allowed to lead a semi normal, or semi active life, my muscles wouldn't be so bad. They told me that my strength in my thighs was so bad, that it would of only been another 6 months to a year before I would of lost the ability to stand without assistance full time. So for the next 6 months to a year, I'm going to be going to PT every other day to work on strengthening those muscles, and work on my balance issues that I have.
So I bet you are wondering why I'm posting it here and not on MG's support forum. Why I'm posting this here, is because finding this out has had me really frustrated lately, and has managed to work me into a bit of a depression. For the last 2 days, I've sat here, stewing for no real reason, thinking about wanting to make contact with the stupid woman to yell and scream at her. I realize it will do nothing, and not be productive, but I can't get the thought out of my head.
I don't know how long I can cope with it before I break down and contact her. So how do I purge the thought out of my head, and just work towards getting better. I've been motivating myself to get better, and saying to myself that this is a new chapter, that I need to fix the mess that she made me, so that I can be a great person once again, but it seems to have little effect right now. Can any of you suggest a way to handle this?
So I bet you are wondering why I'm posting it here and not on MG's support forum. Why I'm posting this here, is because finding this out has had me really frustrated lately, and has managed to work me into a bit of a depression. For the last 2 days, I've sat here, stewing for no real reason, thinking about wanting to make contact with the stupid woman to yell and scream at her. I realize it will do nothing, and not be productive, but I can't get the thought out of my head.
I don't know how long I can cope with it before I break down and contact her. So how do I purge the thought out of my head, and just work towards getting better. I've been motivating myself to get better, and saying to myself that this is a new chapter, that I need to fix the mess that she made me, so that I can be a great person once again, but it seems to have little effect right now. Can any of you suggest a way to handle this?
Constant yelling, being put down, and for the lack of a better word dominated into it. She used guilt as a weapon, and made me feel so pathetic and weak, and helpless that I did it solely to make her happy. I'm not proud of it, but I did it because I loved her, and wanted to make her happy. As far as doctor's go, I haven't seen one in 7 1/2 years, until recently. Lack of funds, and her not willing to go into Pittsburgh for me to see someone was a big problem. Hope that answers your question.
I don't mind physical therapy, but it hurts, and I come home every time very weak compared to when I go in. Also, I find it a bit demoralizing due to the fact that I'm unable to do such basic tasks. I know in time this will get better as I regain my strength, but for right now it is still kicking my butt.