I remember when I joined Daily Strength, I thought I was going to die. It took all my strength to get out of that hole I was in. Today I am whole again. At 37 years old I am as fit as I have ever been in my life. I have a steady job and found time to set up my business which is doing better each day. I am writing again and listening to music with as much passion as I did before. I am even dating again and am currently in a good healthy relationship with a wonderful woman. All this and I keep thanking myself for this one special moment which I want to share with all of you.  

I picked up a book called The Power of Now one day. I read it cover to cover as I was doing at the time and realized just ONE important thing from that book. It was all in ME to do what needed to be done. 

I decided that fateful day that from that moment on I would be more conscious of what my thoughts were and my feelings were. I decided to be happy. Easy decision hard to do. It took all my strength to begin that journey but I bit the bullet. I gritted my teeth and the next day joined a gym. I promised myself I would go at least 5 times a week or everyday if I could. I forced myself to smile at everyone when all I wanted to do was run back into my room and hide under my covers. I forced myself to eat. I forced myself to read books I used to read like Anne Rice or Stephen King (yeah I know kinda dark but I love them) All I was reading at the time were self help books. 

It took every ounce of energy to do all this and the biggest challenge was the No Contact rule. I could do the No Contact but to do it 100% also means you don't allow any information about the person to come your way. So I closed my FB account and other social medias for one month. I decided to do it cold turkey and thankfully it worked. 

So what happened... 2 months later I started to not have to FORCE it. My body had the energy it needed for the gym. It wasn't a chore anymore it was fun. I met people at the gym and started to go out again and have meaningful conversations. I dove into my work and found it fun again. The money is fun too jejejeje. I loved my alone time again and it wasn't lonely time it was relaxing and peaceful. My smile wasn't forced anymore and I became my usual joker self. People at work started complimenting me on looking good and wonderful personality. 

My life started to be a peaceful one. Then as fate would have it someone walked into my life which was and is worth taking a second look and leaving my fears behind. For the first time I didn't dive in head first but took baby steps and watched for ALL and any red flag. I took my time but here we are and it is going wonderfully. 

For the first time in about 10 years my life is exactly where I want it to be and I am exactly how I want to be. There is no such thing as perfect, but this is perfect for ME. 

How did it happen? it all started with a decision. A decision to let go of the past, let go of the hurt, let go of her, let go of myself.... And just BE. 

MY FRIENDLY ADVICE: Make the decision TODAY and stick to it without a single hesitation. Your future self will come back and say "Thank You". 

BTW: None of this would have been possible if it wasn't for several people on this website and this group. To you "guys and gals" I send all my love.