That's a lot of stuff going on. The good news is you can change all of that. Today can be the first day of your new life. You might look back a year from now and be in a totally different spot, with a new love even perhaps. When it rains it pours but it washes all the garbage away so you can start fresh. Like 2 years ago I was in a mess of a situation and had like 4 major life changes/upsets and I almost cracked. I don't think the universe would test you like this if you couldn't handle it. Think big picture but look around, be in the moment and realize that if you just stop and listen to the silence beneath all of this surface chaos, everything is exactly how it should be.

I feel your pain, I myself too am down. going through a separation and alot of it was my fault. some hers also but i took my vows for better or for worse serious..seems as if she didn't..this is tough

thanks firsttracks and troubleman. I just want something positive to happen, I am getting hit from every direction. Can I get some good news.

I hate those kinds of days, where all you want to do it put the covers over your head and stay in bed all day. Treat yourself to something nice tonight. Maybe a bubble bath. We all have down days and piles of shit to go through. You'll get through this. Tackle your problems one at a time. Too many decisions and too much change all at once can be overwhelming.

cheryt, I wish I could, I am working a 12 hour day. I living with girlfriend temp until I find something. She has a 26 year old son living at home, and his girlfriend comes over all the time. Although she is nice and a crazy but lovable dog and that seeks constant attention. I wish Calgon, is that the right spelling? could take me away.

That's tought. Well, just know we're here for you, and we understand your pain.

thank you.