I am in the same boat.

I have already gone to the bathroom twice to cry. I feel alone, blank, out of place, and so low. Everyone around me is laughing. I am putting on a fake smile. I have been this way for about a month. I try so hard to make things right with my parther, but my attempts are overlooked.

Cyclonesfan, I'm sorry you are feeling the same way. And it's not like I'll feel better when my work day is done. I'll feel the same way, just at home. Not a lot of motivation right now to do anything interesting. Maybe some exercise when I get home, but that's about it.

if ever you need to talki am her in the same boat message me

Regardless of where I am or what I am doing... I do not feel whole. I now feel less than. I always saw us as a team that nothing could come between. Now, I feel like I am the arch nemisis.

I'm not at work, was going to try to exercise but ended up laying on the floor crying instead of doing crunches. I'm back to wanting to give up on life.

LiannaMeZ,I'm so sorry. I know that being at home is even harder for me than being at work. The day just seems endless. And then I feel guilty for wasting a beautiful day feeling sorry for myself. Ugh! I hate this.

When I am at home, I do not feel "at home". I pace. I cry. I just want to leave. I look around and all I see is memories. Why me? I know I need to work out, but my heart feels as if it will explode the way it is. I also do not see my partner in any pain. That makes it worse.

Ahh, this sucks guys. I have many days like this. =(

DS helps, but it's hard to process these emotions and still have to *attend* work.

Its amazing how many people feel this way. They need to start having on site counselors in the office.

I don't feel like that this week, but there have been many times where I had to put on a happy face when I was hurting inside. So I definitely know what you're feeling. I would often have go to the bathroom to cry and just let it out. When I was done I would wipe my tears and go back to my desk. I'm doing better this week, but I'm pretty sure another day will come when I'm overwhelmed with emotions and I will end up crying again.

Does anyone feel like you cant breath? Do you think that everybody looks at you and sees your pain? Does anyone feel so tired, but cant sleep?

Oh my.....I have lost count of how many days I've had like what you are going through now. I'm so sorry for your pain and grief! After I became vulnerable at work, I had so many people tell me how their relationships or marriages were on the rocks, too. So, no....a lot of other's are struggling with issues and problems in their marriages or relationships, too.

Peace & (((Hugs))) To You!

In a world where it seems a myriad of people are suffering just like me, I still feel lost, alone, and have a void in my heart. I do not think it is possible to feel any miserable than I do at this point. I struggle to find my place in this world. I have been deployed to Iraq and Afghanistan, but this is the hardest battle I have ever had to contend with.

I at least can have peace in my home because he didn't live here but I have couches that I bought from him that I hate! My problem is feeling like I am a prisoner in my own home due to not having my car. I only go as far as I can walk- which truly is a long long way! But the weather is sucky- snowing and blowing and depressing.

Well at least I got up off the floor and stopped crying- I got on my treadmill and cried on there instead, one would think I'd be out of tears by now! I've had a shower and fixed my hair and gave myself a pedicure- stuck my face in ice water- my eyes still look bad! I'm trying not to eat or over eat. Anyone else an emotional eater? This was supposed to be my year to really get in shape- and I was doing great and then all this happened. I'm still trying to work out but now that Im pregnant I don't want to over do it and I guess I'm not supposed to lose weight, for sure my stomach isn't going to get flatter- I haven't gained anything yet but my pants aren't comfortable-blah everything sucks today!

I know a fair number of people with messed up lives- all of them are guys lol. Who have actually been really nice to me when I thought they'd be taking his side.