you've been in this spot for a long time

what do you think might get you shifted into a different spot?

llmt -- I don't know.

It certainly seems to work for some people.

I keep faking it and believing I might make it -- only to be knocked by down again.

I know that is how you must feel.

I'm very depressed lately and feeling overwhelmed with everything, so I am certainly not one to give good advice at this point.

I just wanted you to know that I remember you most fondly and with admiration -- and, you'll probably hate to hear this, but I truly believe you can make it.

Sending heartfelt wishes for strength and peace.

WMH

Well, it's complicated but I shall suffice it to say for me...another one bites the dust. I try and try but it's never good enough. I could think of a lot of things that would help, nothing of it is legal, though.

You know...I wish I could so "like" the comments on here by clicking a button...thank you both.

I try and try yet in the end I realize I am faking it. I pretend on the outside I'm ok but inside I feel hurt and angry. I'm with you.

is living with your parents, until you are on your feet not an option?

I just imagine myself feeling betrayed, rejected and still living with my ex while watching him carry on a relationship with someone else, and I know I wouldn't be able to tolerate it.

No they are out of state and too far away, unless he ok'd it and I won't ask. I don't even think it's the living together, still, part, it's the lack of privacy and just having my alone time to sort it out. I keep looking at what is wrong with me...why do I allow people to hurt me when I know in my gut I feel the wrongness, yet I continue to go for it...thinking it's only in my head. I gave it chance with someone, yet to be hurt again. Grrrr.

I just feel too emotionally. I wish I could turn that part of me off. I care too deeply and for what...to get kicked down all the time.

"I keep looking at what is wrong with me...why do I allow people to hurt me when I know in my gut I feel the wrongness, yet I continue to go for it...thinking it's only in my head. I gave it chance with someone, yet to be hurt again."

omg, you must be my long-lost sad soul sister.

That is me, exactly. Also the part about feeling and caring too much -- what I wouldn't give to turn if off!!! FML.

Totally with you. : (

(((llmt)))))

I can definitely relate, I am not living with my Ex, but he finds ways to interject himself into my life in the weirdest ways. I feel like it will never be over. I am almost 4 years post divorce and still have to make severe changes to my standard of living.

I am still in survival mode myself, but when I take the time to take care of myself (be alone), and practice my faith, I find my attitude becomes more positive and helps me feel better about my circumstances, which helps me to reach out for help and find resources I never knew existed.


If you can find a way to get that alone time... even if it is for an hour a week to start... it would make a big difference in helping you sort through the messy part of your life. Never feel like you have to to this by yourself. Ask for help. The worst that will happen is that they will say no.

I hope this helps. Hugs.

I don't have other choice, my heart is broken, but I smile. It hasn't been 2 years for me,still if you look around, not all of your buds are entirely happy.... They still support you, right?

I don't have anyone here.

I do, I can tell you, they have problems too and they put on smiles and support me. I do for them the same. You should do the same for the ones you love, that what fake it until you make it for me. Other things....., that doesn't work now, okay, maybe later, take it easy.

I'm a big faker sometimes and sometimes not so much. I have good people around me telling me how freakin great I am all the time so I believe them. Then when life starts throwing me curve balls I feel less confident and admit I'm faking. I have no answers...just a hug for you ((((HUGS)))) Are you sure you just are not in a low spot right now? I know things at work were shitty not too long ago.

Ive learned that more often than not, what we resist .. persists.

Wishing you the best and sending some healing energy your way...