I hope you have a therapist and/or can find a grief
Support group of some sort. Divorce care would
Be better. I cried for 4 months after he left. I cried
especially when at home and in the car. I could not
wait to get home to grieve.

The best advise i can give is to let your bosses
Know whats going on. I never got written up and
Got good reviews even though my performance
Was not great. We all have stuff deaths, sickness
So most bosses are understanding.

Time takes time, do not expect a happy face until
after The divorce is over even then it still takes more
Time. The divorce process is nothing i ever want to
Ever go thru again.

Begging at this stage does not do much good, it
Will only hurt you and your self esteem and Inflate
his ego more.

Melodie Beattie book, language of letting go is a
Good gentle reading. I always carry it in my car. I
read it so many times its A daily reader much like
Alanon just gentler. HUGS

I think your feelings are normal. I hope you find some time to get outside and breathe and enjoy the day.

I talked to my boss, she's trying but she doesn't really understand. She's been married for 20 years so she even said she can't really relate. And she knows in a year i may be leaving for school as well as my other coworker so she doesnt seem too happy with us because of that but she tries to be supportive. The weekends always seem to be the worst. And next month will be my first birthday without him since I was 15, and my first thanksgiving and Christmas and I have no other family. It all feels so crushing, I hope I find a therapist I like, I haven't had any luck so far

The holidays and birthdays are brutal when
You are alone. Divorce care people had us
Over for some of those holidays. I would also
Go to other places, now i dont worry as much
As i did at the beginning. The advise is to make
new traditions

Its still bad at the holidays, i have Meditation
music on thanksgiving to new years To help
stay calm. My Squirrel brain runs and i am not
calm. Its like constant anxiety and triggering.

Glad you talked to your boss that is all You
can do. Neither of my bosses were ever
Divorced either. It just helps covering your
Butt if there is a complaint and you are not
At the top of your game.

Weekends are tough for many even post
divorce especially when no children or pets
to keep Busy with. They are always on the go
with A zest for life.

None of this is easy to rebuild your life and start
All over again. You do have youth on your side and
Schooling ahead. HUGS

I hope that you are feeling better hugs

Thanks, I was feeling a little better until I had to go grocery shopping then cried in my car on the way home

What a terrible thing to go through. I remember those days all too well. All I can offer is that it will get better, it just takes time. Try to focus on the things that you didnt like about him, that helped me a lot. Your in my thoughts.

Thank you, I'm looking forward to that day. He's a mouth breather, that always bothered me lol...

i wish i could just think about the bad things
that i didnt like about him and that Worked :)

My heart goes out to you, Regaloctopus. I know that this is a devastating experience, no matter what the cause! Do you have people to talk to or meet up? Like friends or family? I think it would be a good idea if you can surround yourself with some encouraging and supporting people during this time – it might be of help. And remember that God cares for you more than you can imagine. May He be with you. Hugs!

It seems unbearable but you'll make it through. You're going to have good days & really bad day (currently going through it right now) but each time the bad day comes around you'll be able to handling it a little better each time. Remembering all the bad & the hurt he caused has helped a little. Praying for you & sending you hugs.

I don't have any family or close friends. Im becoming friends with a few of my coworkers but theyre new friendships and I feel like they're getting tired of me talking about it

Are you seeing a therapist? If not, this might be a good time to start. I know what it's like when people start getting tired of hearing about it. It's like after they've gotten all the juicy details, they're gone. My therapist and this forum are the only things that have helped me survive!

I Needed my support groups, Therapist, church
people most others got sick of hearing about
It or about all your feelings and emotions. I can see
Their Wall go up. Come on here and vent, scream
And cry. We have walked in your shoes.

If you think of others you knew that were going
thru a divorce And you had to listen To it how
you felt. We burden people with our pain and
hurt, They all have there own stuff to carry and
be concerned with.

Family often times are not the answer to being
Helpful. They take sides or bad mouth the stbx
and that will just stir you up. My mother i Refused
to discuss my divorce with her she was trying to
Tell me what to do. HUGS

Ni, I haven't found one yet. I went to one and didn't like him. This site has been great for me to get my feelings out and feel supported. My mother and I don't have a great relationship, I reached out to her and was reminded on why I had distanced myself from her. She wasn't really listening to how I felt or the situation