Lately I've been able to enjoy something for a few minutes without thinking of her or remembering that we are no longer together. It's not very long indeed but it gives me hope. Recently I've been watching more of Netflix than usual and YouTube as well. It helps a little to distract myself which is good. I'm at a weird stage at the moment. I know the relationship is now a part of my past and I accept that my ex wasnt a perfect fit but I'm also obviously not ready for someone new and that puts me in the lonely stage. I still miss her but she's never coming back so I'm trying more and more to think of her less. I know my biggest challenge now is to really grasp the idea of self love and self worth which is something I've always been in desperate need of. I guess 50 is as good an age to start lol!
Does anyone else on here count the days and keep track of the dates that they have sex with their spouse/SO? Is it strange that I track these rare occurrences? Maybe I’m just dysfunctional.
He was my first big love. It was 1997, we were 20 years old and it was passionate and intense, so intense that both of us could not handle it and after 7 months he ended it much to my devestation.In 2007 we reconnected. I was fresh out of a sex-less short marriage but living in NZ, mr Big-Love was in the UK. We texted and talked on the phone. I flew over 3 times to see him and by November 2008 he...