Hello all it has been a while since I have posted. A couple weeks ago I had to go see the ex and give him a matress and sign some papers. It was bad I yelled he yelled. I wanted answers for why he left and he had nothing to say. There is so much hatred between us. It made me so sad that we went from this great couple to being so hateful we can't even have a conversation. I feel better now I said what i needed to and even though he couldn't give me answers I feel like I have some closure. And then after all that I went on vacation went to the ocean. I had never been and wow talk about therapeutic. I have not been that relaxed in a long time. Anyway I don't know how much I will be posting for a while I am finally feeling like a new normal is working for me and life is okay. For all you new people out there it gets better I know it doesn't feel like it but the pain fades keep your friends and family close. The love of my family and friends gave me so much strength and this place is great to vent and talk. Hugs t9 every one