It's your body, so it can only be your decision. Do what ever you need to do to take care of yourself . :)

I can only say that for me, personally, antidepressants made me positively crazy. I've tried so many different ones and it's always the same story- they help in the beginning. I feel happier, less anxious. Then I start getting diarrhea of the mouth- saying things I shouldn't, doing things impulsively. I've decided I'd rather be blue once in a while than behave the way I do when on them. It's been over 6 years since I've taken them and my life has improved so much.
I have aunts who are taking them and their behavior is so similar to mine when I was on them. They swear these pills help them, just as I did back then. But you can literally trace their increasingly inappropriate behavior to when they started taking them.
I recently became closer to someone who was just an acquaintance to me many years ago. We were having a conversation, and he said this:
"Wow. I can actually talk to you. You're, like, normal now."
I know there are some people who really believe in these, and I hope I haven't offended anyone. But of all the people I've met in real life who say they are being helped by antidepressants, I've yet to see anything but negative changes.
I'm sorry you are having difficulties and hope I haven't come across as preachy. I wish you happiness and peace of mind.

Yeah.

Not in my wheelhouse.

I always figured if you can think your way into depression, you can think your way out.

That of course discounts people with chemical imbalances, blah, blah, blah.

My therapist was hinting at a prescription when I first started seeing her. I immediately told her not a chance in hell.. I was on them briefly a few years ago and they totally messed with me entirely.. mentally, physically.. I just wasnt the same.
My personal opinion is going through a traumatic life event such as divorce requires work to heal through it, not a band-aid. For me, antidepressants are for people who have a lifetime struggle.. for people who are sick.

I'm not trying to be intrusive or critical of your choices at ALL - but maybe if you felt the cold, hard feelings (that are completely normal for what youre going through), youd come out on the other side with so many valuable tools to make you stronger and able to deal with harsh life events later on down the road. Just my friendly 2cents.