I'm back here to give an update as to what's been happening since my original post. Where to begin? A lot has happened. Okay well my ex and I had to go to court for medical & child support. Not much happened. We were told we had to come back in 6 weeks. After court my ex and I had agreed together that he would do child support. Also he stated he wanted us to work things out and be a family. Not gonna lie I was skeptical about it. Thought he was saying that in hopes that maybe he wouldn't have to pay child support. I had confronted him about it and he said that wasn't the case but despite what I felt I gave him the benefit of doubt. We got back together but that did not last long. We fought. First we fought about the fact he was still friends with this girl that he was having a long distance relationship with not long before we got back together. After fighting about it for a while he finally agreed to end his friendship with her. Now when my ex and I broke up the first time my ex decided to hook up with several people. I accepted it. Nothing I could do to change that. Yes it hurt at first because it felt as if I never meant anything to him. Then it pissed me off and still does because of the fact he was too busy having hook ups and couldn't be bothered to spend time with our son. But I was willing to move past that but I was being constantly reminded about it and then I found out about another person he had semi hooked up with and basically after that our relationship ended. Okay fast forward a bit. My son's birthday was approaching and my ex and I were not getting along but I was nice enough to invite him over to spend time with our son on his 1st birthday. I expressed to my ex that all I wanted on my son's birthday was to have a good day. (After all his first birthday was special to me.) I wanted to bake our son a cake, sing happy birthday and take pictures and cherish this moment forever. Okay now here's what really happened on our son's birthday.. my ex and I fought. I tried kicking him out but changed my mind. I cried. My ex cried. He said a bunch of bs lies about loving me and not wanting to hurt me anymore and blah blah blah. He invited his mother over to see our son and what not. So she comes over and you're not gonna believe what she did. She came over with a store bought cake and gave it to my son as his first birthday cake!!! She didn't bother to check with me and ask if I had planned anything or whatever. She just came over and ruined what was suppose to be a special moment for me. I looked forward to his birthday for so long. People gotta understand that I was told that I couldn't have children so the fact I was blessed with my son means more than everything to me. They saw his birthday as no big deal because they're technically jehovah witnesses and that my son is gonna have plenty of birthdays. But everyone knows that the first one is special. I told my ex how I felt about all of it. The only person who seemed to understand how I felt was my mom. I was absolutely devastated that they ruin his birthday for me. Anyways they leave and i had to attend an appointment for my son. I texted my ex to update him on our son's newest measurements of height and weight but before I could my ex decided to start yet another argument with me. My son's birthday was just getting crappier for me. Eventually I ceased all contact with my ex. Except to update him on new things our son was doing but unfortunately my ex was too busy to bother to read my messages. Next morning I thought for sure he would respond but nope. So finally I texted him and said he was missing out on learning new things about our son then all of sudden he was interested. But by that time I didn't want to tell him. I told him I was no longer gonna make the effort to update him and I stopped talking to him. Not once did he message me to check up on our son. I complained twice to him about it and still he never asked. It wasnt til the next day after my second complaint he decided to ask how our son was doing at 7 in the morning. Okay fast forward a bit it's now time for us to go to court again. Unfortunately I was stuck having to get a ride with my ex and his mom because my original ride had to cancel due to work emergency and I had no one else to ask. So my ex comes to house and he comes in to help me get our son and things ready to go and my ex decides to leave our son on the couch alone starts to walk away. Our son fell. I'm beyond pissed off because he has done this several times knowing that our son can not be left alone on the couch. Yes my son knows how to get down from the couch at times no problem but with me I'm there and monitor him and I'm ready for any sign of difficulties. Okay so we go to court we get called up to the table and we have to speak to this guy from the child support office and the guy asked me if i was looking for support and i said yes. My ex starts having an attitude. Eventually we finish up at court my ex stopped at the vending machine and flashes his handful of ones and I crack a joke saying oh you got dollar bills instead of change. (He usually has change) and he cracks this joke his older brother likes to say which is I don't have support single mothers money. (Not funny) anyways my ex and his mom drops my son and i off at my house and so I texted my ex and I go um quick question are you upset with me about court and his response was I wish you weren't taking me for support. We fought a bit and then I was done with him completely. My ex likes to tell people that I'm this horrible person who tries to keep our son from him and he makes it seem like he's father of the year. I'm tired of being made out to be this piece of crap bad guy when I'm not. My ex has caused me so much pain and misery. I have become even more depressed. I gained so much weight due to being an emotional eater. My health and mental health have declined. But I'm currently working on removing my ex from mine and my son's life. He is just too toxic. 


Sorry this is so long but i had a lot to tell and get off my chest.