I know I am very young (14 years to be exact), but I feel like I have no hope for love. My first crush rejected me when I asked him out, and I believed from then on that no one will ever love me. This year I met a new boy who many of my friends had crushes on and we became best friends. He helped me through depression and anxiety, with some suicidal experiences mixed in. After a bit of being super close, we confessed our love for each other. We dated for nineteen days, he even attempted to rape me in that time, until he cheated on me and proceeded to break up with me until he decided which girl he loved more. He chose the other girl, leaving me even more broken than I was before. Meanwhile, one of my best friends started dating my first crush. She comforted me after the breakup by telling me about how much he loves her. In other words, my friend tried to make me feel better about my second crush not loving me by telling me all about how my first crush doesn't either. After six days, one of my ex's best friends admitted to having a crush on me, and he asked me for nudes. When I refused, we slowly became less and less of friends. A few days later, my ex boyfriend came to my house to tell my parents I am suicidal. A month later he began ignoring my texts. He left me on read for six weeks, even though I texted him every single day, clinging to the hope that we could still be friends. He did come back, but he came back with an evil taste to him, as if my pain amused him. He began screaming at me for still talking to him. I found out a week later than he and the boy who had asked me for nudes started spreading false rumors about me that could literally destroy my high school reputation. I'm now known as the stupid, stereotypical teenage girl who obsesses over boys because my ex told everyone that I liked him, even though we "never dated", and that when he told me we weren't dating I got upset. He blackmailed me into telling everyone that was true. The other boy told everyone that I was the one who liked him and asked him for nudes, not the other way around. And everyone believed them. Recently, I found out that my ex is using one of my best friends to get over another girl. I can't do anything about this because I was blackmailed into secrecy. I just need to watch my player of an ex boyfriend break her heart. But it hurts to see them together, especially since the girl knows I dated him. She knows he broke my heart, yet she specifically told me that she puts him above me, and I'm at the bottom of the list. Is there anything I can do about this? Please help!