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All Cried Out

ValAngel18
ValAngel18

Can't sleep.  Today was rough, but I made it through.  And I think I did very well!  He texted me all day at work.  Wanted to come pick up his video games.  BUT...  I couldn't pack them up for him and put them somewhere for him to grab.  Nooooo... He "needed" to come in to get them himself.  Something about not wanting me to break them out of spite.  LOL!  So I got home from work, packed them up, put them outside and didn't give him a choice!  He knocked and knocked at my door for at least a half hour.  I ignored the knocks, the texts and the calls.  Finally he left.  He texted me afterwards and later into the night.  Sweet mushy crap.  Love songs, blah... 


Around midnight, I gathered up all the pictures and letters I found from his whore.  Took them outside, burned them all and watched the ashes float away.  I felt so amazing!!  I haven't been that at peace in so very long.  I actually giggled and danced a little jig!!  If any of my neighbors were watching, I'm sure they think I'm 100% bat-shit crazy!! 


I'm still nervous about tomorrow.  Maybe that's why I can't sleep.  My sisters will be here, so hopefully he doesn't try to stay when he picks up the rest of his crap.  After tomorrow, that's it.  Blocking him from my phone.  No contact.  if there are any emergencies, I will hear them from my side of the family. 


I still miss him so much.  Funny thing is, I haven't cried at all this time.  My favorite song of all time is "All Cried Out" by Lisa Lisa & Cult Jam.  I actually think that I am now truly all cried out and that just helps me know that this is the right thing to do. 


Honestly, though...  Gotta send a shout-out to Dandelion for kicking my ass into gear! 

Dandelion
Dandelion
That was unexpected.(the shout out)

When people are used to being able to sway us with charm, or threats, or whatever it's because we've let them know by OUR actions that it's okay.

We really do teach others how to treat us.

Personally I'd just rather be responsible and accountable than do the drama anymore.

Some people are into negative drama. I'd rather be doing things that make me happy and add to my life.

You'll see your life will feel so much better when you're the one in charge of it.

And since the joker's we sob over aren't going to pay for the plastic surgery to put our faces back together, I'd just rather not go there over someone so not worth it.
Atpeacemary
Atpeacemary
Hugs my friend. You are one strong woman. Keep on going strong. My girlfriend had an off duty cop be with her when her ex came to get the rest of this things. He was shocked to see that. He thought that he could sweet talk her into giving up. It was the best 200 dollars that she ever spent to get rid of him. You do not owe him anything, nada, zip, niente. So, when you see him, just smile, turn around and walk away. They do not like to feel that they have lost control.
jaynib
jaynib
I don't know the whole story but have to agree you've done well at staying strong. It's likely that he wants to keep you sucked into the drama and it won't serve you very well to do so. Just be prepared in case you do get sad or start missing him again. Those are natural feelings after you've bonded to someone. Just make sure you're getting with healthy people who stir you in the right direction, taking care of yourself and making the right choices for your future. In time you'll feel pity for him and not much else.
ripped_my_heartout
ripped_my_heartout
You have done well staying strong and keep the contact close to nothing at all if possible. The burning was great. It's symbolic, I wrote a 3 page letter to my stbx....nasty one, never meant to be read again and watched it burn. Very therapeutic. It was I telling myself, I'm ready to move on.

That pain we go through and the process it takes to heal can be lengthy. We need to think of ourselves, improve and rebuild. We will be strong and better because of it.
Stay strong and positive.
-HUGS-
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