On day 6, Monday, I had given up all hope of getting back together. I was angry instead of hurt. I've been losing weight all week. The only thing I've eaten is 2 pieces of crust off some pizza and a hamburger patty and fries. I haven't slept. I haven't done much of anything. Well, I was tired of being hurt so I put on some music. One of the first songs to play was "I'm Not Going Out Like That" By reba Mcentire. It really hit home so I called up my best friend and told him I'd be ready in 30 min if he wanted to go party. Well, I put on my most flattering shirt and jeans. Did my make up and made sure my eyeliner was sharp enough to cut. Keep in mind I had asked my husband all day if he wanted to come see his daughter. I didn't tell him I was going out. Well, My friend and I were coming up with plans he suggested a dance bar on 6th street that he was interested in. I remembered that my husband had my ID. So, with no other choice, I called him telling him we were going to stop by his work and get my ID because I was going to need it. He told me he was planning on coming to see our daughter. I wanted to tell him too bad, but my heart knew that she needed to see him. I also wanted to see him, I was just telling myself I didn't want to.

So, he comes over, after my friend drives me all the way back home. I could see his eyes almost pop out of his head and looked very very sad. So he went and laid down on our bed with our daughter and watched Barney with her. He kept sending me looks and I could feel the electricity every time we accidentally touched. When we put her to bed we made love. I knew it was wrong and I knew I would be in so much pain in the morning but I did it anyway. afterwards we showered and I told him everything that I've been feeling, I told him how I realized all the things I did wrong in our relationship. He told me he wanted to really work it out, but that he needed time to fix himself and the pain he's been feeling. We parted and for once I was actually hopeful.

Day 7, I took my baby to the park and spent the day with her. He called and told me that he finally got the A-OK to go to training to be a general manager for the company he works for. I'm so incredibly proud and happy for him. But, I'm also very selfish, he'll be gone for three weeks when the time comes. He'll be all the way in Illinois and I'll be in Texas. I guess my question for the day is what do I do now? I can't tell him not to go, he'd go anyways and this is a fantastic opportunity. I need y'alls advice. We just agreed to try and fix things and now he'll be gone for a month.